it is my fear!

Last night we fought! He said that I don't love him...seriously how can he say like that to me?...he scold me a lot...he said I lie to him...I know it is my fault...but I didn't mean to lie...sometimes I just did something without thinking before did it...I said sorry again and again but it seem like he would not stop!...that time I was thinking I was going to lose him...when I thought our relationship would be end...really it is hard to breath...I felt like I suddenly had asthma... And I did...

09 October 2014, 03:57 AM
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Haqil said he loves fat girl!

last night I asked Haqil about his ex and he said I'm fatter than his ex...I didn't mind about it because I knew we were kidding...actually being fat I don't take it serious for now...I am a fat girl and I am fat since I was young...It is not a big deal if someone will say Polly you are fat!...especially I know Haqil was kidding me...I know he loves me and he loves me just the way I am...hahaha...even I am fat he still thinks I will cheat on him! really I can find any boys with this chubby lo...

08 October 2014, 09:33 AM
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He learns Thai word!

I teach Haqil about Thai words. I didn't tell him much because I know he can't remember them all. He knows 'sawaddeekub' and 'sabaydeemai'. these are just common word for greeting...I know he still try to remember it. I taught him to say 'Jub Jub' for kiss. Today I teach him to know the words 'Gin karw'(eat) and 'Arrb Naam'(take a shower) :D after a few day I called him Haqil Sok Ga Pok (dirty). hahaha He told me he has cough so he didn't take a shower before go to sleep :P I said ewwwww Haqi...

03 October 2014, 09:18 AM
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30th September

Today is last day of month. Salary will come out. First thing to buy is rice.Tomorrow I will go to find data for research at Burapha University library. and tomorrow is also 1st anniversary. I don't know It seem like nothing special. I told him I'm lazy so I will not make vdo for him. He said it is ok. I know he will not do anything for give me too. So... yeah nothing special happen...leave it...Just we don't fight it is enough because it is so tired when we fight...in every fight it finish b...

30 September 2014, 08:29 AM
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Salary!

Wow They say salary will be like normal...They reduce ours for longgggggggggg time!...I'm gonna die here..and I owe my friend some money too!...this is the best news ever!..I have no money for five days I have no idea how can i "survive" till now lol...Thx god!

29 September 2014, 06:04 AM
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Feel I'm not important

New semester for him has begun. His class finish early night from Monday to Thursday. He just chat with me on Friday. by chat I mean online on camera. I got it he has his life he goes around hang out with his friends then he can't give me time. But...I'm his girlfriend!...I always say ok I understand and I let him go...I don't know...sometimes I feel I'm nothing I'm not important...maybe I think too much...what should I do? Can you give me any advice?...

28 September 2014, 07:15 AM
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ทำไม

บางครั้ง...เราเองก็ไม่เข้าใจ ออกมาทำงานแล้ว เรียนจบแพทย์แผนไทยประยุกต์ ทำงานเป็นเภสัชกรแผนไทย แต่ทำไม ยังจนอยู่...ทุกวันนี้แม่ไม่ช่วยเรื่องเงินทองแล้ว เรียกได้ว่าต้องหาเอาเอง ช่วงนี้เงินเดือนก็โดนตัดด้วยข้ออ้างตั้งแต่เคอฟิวว่า เศรษฐกิจไม่ดี บริษัทขาดทุน ขอตัดเงินเดือนพนักงานทุกคน นี่มันกี่เดือนแล้ว ยังไม่ยอมขึ้นเงินเดือนเลยทั้งที่บอกว่าดูสถานการณ์วันต่อวัน ถ้าเลิกเคอฟิวจะให้เงินเดือนเท่าเดิม...ช่วงนี้ป้าป่วย ต้องการเงินนะ เราจะตายอยู่แล้ว เป็นหนี้เพื่อนสองพันแล้วด้วย ไม่รู้เมื่อไหร่จะมีใช้หนี...

27 September 2014, 05:17 AM
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เมื่อความเครียดเข้าครอบงำ

หญิงชราคนนึง ก็แก่ไม่มากหรอก เคยอาศัยอยู่กับน้องชายและครอบครัว คอยดูแลพ่อผู้ชรา ดูแลบ้าน และดูแลลูกๆของน้องชาย เมื่อพ่อผู้ชราสิ้นลมลง ก็เหลือแค่น้องชายเป็นที่พึ่ง จนกระทั่งน้องชายสิ้นลมก่อนวัยอันควร ภรรยาน้องชายก็ไล่เธอออกจากบ้าน โชคดีที่ก่อนตายน้องชายได้ซื้อที่ดินไว้ให้ หญิงชราจึงมีที่ดินพอจะปลูกบ้าน แต่กระนั้นนางก็ยังอยู่เพียงลำพัง...เราพูดถึงใครเหรอ...ป้าเราเอง...ป้าเลี้ยงเรามานะ...ทิ้งแกเลยตามแม่สั่ง...ไม่ได้หรอก...จะทำไงดี...งานเราอยู่ที่พัทยา...เราเรียนเสาร์อาทิตย์ในกรุงเทพฯ...ไม่มีวันห...

26 September 2014, 07:27 AM
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I will call you!

Nowadays Haqil doesn't have smartphone. He sold it! and when I send him message on facebook sometimes he is not there online...so when he is online sometimes I'm not online here...so I bought a new simple mobile and a sim for call abroad...I can call him whenever I want...call abroad is expensive but it is ok with this sim it is not cheap and not expensive I love him I'm ok to pay...and with his voice every times I got mad at him if I chat with him I will keep angry,but if I talk with him...h...

20 August 2014, 08:03 AM
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No time!

24 hours is short! one day pass easily. Time flies so fast. If so, Do whatever you want. Don't waste your time.

01 August 2014, 07:22 AM
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He is blind.

I know myself I'm normal girl with normal look. Moreover I'm so fat but Haqil never care. He knows girl in my shape we call fat but Haqil says to me everyday that 'you are beautiful'. He is wrong or he is right I don't know I can't flatter myself...hahaha. maybe it is because he loves me so much, that is why he flatters me. This thing shows me Haqil loves me by heart...I can't explain more about my feeling...I love him very much...I never love any boy like this before...last time we broke up ...

24 July 2014, 02:38 PM
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I have a weird dream!

It is just a dream I know but why I dream about it I have no idea. yes I and Haqil we never met in real so it means we never kiss too. >_< It doesn't matter we will be together or not. nowadays I'm happy that I have him and it is enough for me.I just hope one day he will come to meet me. By the way this is weird dream for me I never dreamed like that before. please Haqil I want to make this dream come true! sorry if this is too much erotic for any girls..^_^ I love you really very very much...

23 July 2014, 07:42 AM
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green towel!

Haqil has green towel and he uses it when he takes a shower! >_< I know I am naughty girl. Hahaha I love you Haqil baa!

21 July 2014, 08:49 PM
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I found it!

Yesterday I cleaned my table and I found this paper I wrote for him. It had some story on this paper. I don't wanna talk that why I wrote this up because it hurts. But as a girl I think it is sweet. If a girl says to a boy like that, you can say she is crazy about u!

18 July 2014, 11:03 PM
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I skip work!

I don't go to work to day because I feel hurt on my leg's joint. Yesterday I sat on table and somehow I think I sat in wrong position. That is why I don't go to work. Also I felt bad a coworker scolded me. I like her so I felt bad that she scolded me. And I think I have class this weekend I wanna recover as soon as possible. So all are reasons I find for skip work today...hahaha

17 July 2014, 03:46 PM
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my art!

Look terrible my art...Hahaha...Haqil shaved his hair...I have no idea how to explain I laugh a lot when I see him :P

17 July 2014, 11:31 AM
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I don't know!

Nothing I just feel bad. It is OK. I complain like old woman. It is normal for me. I'm crazy. Everything is gonna be fine. I just hope soon...T_T

15 July 2014, 09:41 AM
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He doesn't understand me.

I don't know what happened to me I just thought I would go to sleep because I had nothing to do. So I sent Haqil message that I would go to sleep. Suddenly I felt I wanna chat with him more so I just kept bothering him and it was end with I cried go to sleep. Why today I was the first that sent him message for start chat...Do I think too much?...This is hurt but I don't wanna say it to him because we will fight again and again and I don't like to fight...I'm just a lonely girl...Thx for reading

14 July 2014, 06:04 PM
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He is crazy about football world cup!

Do you know? I don't like to watch sport program on TV. Do you know? I don't like watching football match. Do you know? in the past I promised to myself I will not date a man who crazy about football. Do you know?I don't like man with beard. Do you know? All I don't like in man...it is in my man now...hahaha...thank god he doesn't have tattoo...I hate the most...Tattoo...and that is a little bit conversation this morning...Haqil baa...I love you!

14 July 2014, 12:24 PM
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it is me!

I know I always fight with him. I am a self-centered girl. It is not lovely for act like that but I'm so lonely without him. I threaten him I will find a boy for chat if he leaves me alone(just pretend to say like that, nothing true). But for him story becomes I wanna break up with him! noooooooo Haqil why do you think like that? Just give me more time ok? How can I break up with you I love you so much haqil baa!

10 July 2014, 04:52 PM
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