Low.

You would think I’d be used to feeling this low. My sister and I got into a huge fight. It started off as a typical fight, however it escalated massively and now, I’m pretty sure I’m dead to her. She knows that I’m not a virgin. However our mother did not. The topic came up and my sister threw me under the bus telling me to tell Mom the truth. This pissed me off because that’s not how I’d like for my mother to find out. Then, she proceeded to call me a slut. She might have meant it as a jok...

I see her face, as real as the chill outside my window. I hear her voice, tinted with laughter. But in a flash it’s all gone. She’s screaming, panicking. Then she’s bent over, crawling from the wrecked car. Blood is splattered upon her porcelain face and seeping through her clothing quickly. She looks up at me in agony as I stand motionless. She reaches a hand for my help but I cannot save her, and to her eyes, it’s as if I won’t even try. I’m so sorry that I couldn’t save you. I’m so sorr...

FUCK

Guess who sprained her knee the week of finals. Yeah. Fucking me. Ihatemylife. D:<

Ugh.

I'm irritated, and mad. For what reason? I have no fucking clue. But I'm ready to go off on someone. |: I hate when I'm like this.

Take a deep breath. Remember you're not alone. <3

Dear Dad

Dear Daddy, I hope you know I did love you, and I still do. Despite our rocky relationship, you always got me anything I wanted. You treated me like a princess. Even if sometimes that princess was more like Rapunzel. I used to strive everyday to make you happy and make you proud of me. That task was extremely difficult. I'm not sure how you felt about me because you always held in your feelings. However I feel like you did care, you were just unsure on how to show it. Daddy, I'm so sorry you...

I wish

"Baby, I'm gonna keep it real, boy you da one I want. I don't own any five inch heels, just got my Nike's on. Never thought I was insecure, boy look at what you done. I don't know what I studied for, clearly you like 'em dumb."

She hates me because he likes me. Awesome.

Speech Day D:

So in like 45 minutes I'm supposed to give an informative speech on the history of Halloween. Easy topic right? Well, it might have been a decent speech if I hadn't started last night. #Slackerrrrrmode FML

Birthday Sex? Whaaa?

This was from yesterday. My ex boyfriend (we only dated four days and in that time span he ended up cheating on me -.- ), messaged me looking for birthday sex. I still think this bitch was drunk.

My Fucked Up Life

You know what I can never understand? How people possibly think they know how I feel. In the time span of four months I've had my best friend go in a coma and die, while we weren't speaking I might add, so technically she died hating me. Then, I ended up in the hospital from a severe anxiety attack. Two weeks after that, my father passes away from cancer. All of this while attempting to start college and grow up. I don't want to ever hear anyone say they understand how I feel.

RIP

Four months ago today I lost my beautiful best friend in a car accident. I miss you so much wifey. I'd give anything in the world to have you here with me again. 2/7/95- 6/21/13