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Photograph by Nobuyoshi Araki

I'm in love. Four years and I can still feel my heart flutter when you gaze into my eyes. Your presence brings me comfort and light into my sorry excuse of a life. It's fucking terrifying. I'm scared because of you. I am scared of dying. I'm scared knowing that one day you and I won't be together anymore. We can be torn apart forever. Even if there is an afterlife, I know we wouldn't go to the same place. Our souls are connected but I'd be crazy if I thought they were intertwined. You're sou...

20 November 2014, 07:21 AM
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5/28/2014

Art by Darla Okada The past couple of days have been kind of budy but interesting I suppose. At my work place, the boss is going to be having workers come in earlier due to the pick up schedule is now earlier. Also we are switching to a new system of mailing. It makes me nervous knowing that tomorrow is when the system will be implemented. However change is best for the business if we hope to grow and the money we will be able to save on postage will be huge. Still I can't help but fear the ...

29 May 2014, 06:43 AM
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Drawing by John Kenn Mortensen

Went to the beach this morning with the family. The car was horrendous so to distract myself, I decided to stupidly text my boyfriend while he was probably sleeping how he was cruel for not coming. Luckily, I was able to catch myself being illogical before he actually read my text messages. Deciding to fix my mistakes, I apologized to him and started using most of the remaining car ride to plan a trip for the two of us. I am thinking some romantic getaway where we stay the night somewhere am...

26 May 2014, 06:41 AM
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Sculpture by Kate MacDowell

Last night I decided to do some of the things on the list of things to do to prevent self-harm on tumblr. I chose to reminisce on happier times with my darling, Jamison. I texted him to tell me one of his fondest memories and he told me, "Remember our 6th monthaversary? You have me this really big card that basically had you glomping me. I really liked the card cause I really loved you hand making gifts for me. It gaveme comfort in knowing that you actually cared enough to do something so m...

24 May 2014, 05:54 AM
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Art called: "The Favorite" by Omar Rayyan

I am so scared right now. I keep seeing silhouettes of people in random places and they usually disappear once I look carefully but it's scaring me. Now I hear screaming of young children outside and I can't figure out if it's real or not. I am also starting to have violent thoughts about people and it terrifies me what I think of doing to them. I'm hoping all of this is because of stress. Although I am so scared and I am trying really hard to keep my brain in place. What if I'm just kidding...

23 May 2014, 07:35 AM
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