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Fear pt2

Fear pt2

Fear.

Being shut out

I have this guy friend. We used to talk a lot to the point that I started to think he probably liked me but then one day he just shut me out. I messaged him once but he did not reply and I'm not thinking of messaging him again just to get an answer from him. I don't know if it's something I did and I'm hoping so bad that I won't see him around the neighborhood I'm moving to because it's where he lives. If I do see him, I'd probably ignore him. I guess we are too much alike that we aren't good...

I'm wonder when my life will start becoming interesting. Everything is just so... stagnant.

This post describes me perfectly

I've always been confused on what I should label myself. I thought I was BI but I never see myself having a romantic relationship with a girl, I guess i just want them for the sexual stuff. Now I know I am heteroflexible/straight. I still see myself going down the aisle with a groom and maybe once in a while fooling around with a girl. Haha! Everything is so clear now

I'm so envious with teenagers who never got stressed about financial matters and only had to think about love and such.

Falling in love would be awesome.

It's weird how a simple "take care!" can make your day great.

And I'm so glad my dad is home from Amsterdam. He's going to my sister's workplace right now together with my sister's boyfriend. I'm sure that manager would be punched by dad. I hope my sister's boyfriend does as well.

So my sister's boyfriend stopped by the house to inform us that my sister was being sexually harassed in her work by her manager. I nearly cried when I heard about it just imagining how she must have felt when that happened. I'm so sad that she did not even trust me enough to tell me. I feel so bad about my sister. She must have been really scared and I'm nearly crying again while typing this.

The internet can't even take my fab.

So, Christmas has passed and I think it went well. I mean, last year has got to be the worst. This year, we were still able to buy clothes for the occasion which was nice because last year, we weren't able to. The food was great. My mom thinks she cooked a little bit too much but that's fine. It was Christmas after all. Though I didn't get my sushi, it was still fine. I'm hoping I could get them on New Year's eve. Can't believe another year has passed. I remember how January started and I was...

I still can't believe im actually 18. I think it would only sink in when I turn 19. Nineteen. OMG. that is so old. I have a feeling I have this peter pan syndrome. I dont wanna get old and wrinkly. If I would be given an option when to die, i would like to die young because I fear being old so much but I dont want to die early. it's so contradicting. I know. I wish I could live for a long time without aging.

I was thinking of getting an actual journal to write my thoughts on but then again I think this way is much more safer. I don't want to have my journal being read by someone but Idk, it really feels different when I write things down compared to typing. Typing is okay because I type really fast so it's like.... I type words the same time I say it in my head so that's rad but I have been writing journals for years and I kinda miss the feeling of having one but then again.... my mom is like a s...

You know, I really enjoyed my come back to college this year but no matter how much I enjoy something, I always get bored with it for some time. I'm totally loving my friends at school but I suddenly felt tired of seeing them. It's like a mood swing. I have days where I like to hang out with them and I have days that I don't.

You know, I really enjoyed my come back to college this year but no matter how much I enjoy something, I always get bored with it for some time. I'm totally loving my friends at school but I suddenly felt tired of seeing them. It's like a mood swing. I have days where I like to hang out with them and I have days that I don't.

You know, I really enjoyed my come back to college this year but no matter how much I enjoy something, I always get bored with it for some time. I'm totally loving my friends at school but I suddenly felt tired of seeing them. It's like a mood swing. I have days where I like to hang out with them and I have days that I don't.