To die without suicide.
To die without suicide.
There never was a special guy in my life and these day's girls are blowing dicks, getting fingered, and feeling the hardcore point of sex. And i'm sitting here, typing away, and never had a first kiss. It really doesn't matter if its special or crappy. What REALLY matters is at what time you did it. And if i ever got the guy i wanted, that'd be quite the surprise! Shit happens, and people don't get what was wanted from the beginning. #ItHappens
I simply want to die. Not by suicide. Maybe cancer or something :/ This year when it was my birthday, when I blew the candles, I wished that i could die, and everybody clapped.. without knowing. Life may have a meaning honestly.. but why live in hell now when you can just get it over with already! I won't kill myself. God will get there for me and if there even is a god, he'll have to be for my forgiveness for making life so miserable.
You know.. I've never wanted to do weed.. ever. As i grew up i still didn't do it. I've never did. The fact that my best friend did it in 5th grade sickens me! She doesn't even know shit about it. It's disgusting in my opinion.. She's going to continue to this.. Its annoying to see a 6th grader wearing gauges and trying to get snake bites.. Just stop please. You're making a fool of yourself. Weed fucks you up. No joke. It also just leads to bigger drugs that are life- threatening.
Every word that has been coming out your mouth has been a lie. I don't even know how i still call you my best friend! Its impossible to let someone go after you've known them for very long! You're a really bad friend. You don't pay attention to me. Only an online game and your stupid annoying friends that are fake. I hope you know how i feel when i walk out..
I have a best friend.. Her name is Vanesa and I'm only telling you because I'll be using her quite often. Sometimes I really don't know if shes a good friend to me.. She's done many stupid things and the other day she slept over.. She asked me, "What do you think about people who cut?" I said "I don't know, maybe it's just a way to release some things like stress, anxiety, or depression.. Why?" She told me "My friend has been cutting herself.." No biggie i thought. The next morning we w...
When I tell people about my problems.. all they ever seem to ask is "WHY?? You're so pretty!" It's stupid.. It's like saying only ugly people deserve problems. Honestly, in a way, we're all fucked up. I may be 14, but having a story never really did require an age. Being pretty won't get you anywhere. Not all problems on earth are being fat or ugly. There's so much more..