Here goes nothing...

This is probably one of the hardest things I've had to do but i need to tell someone so here goes nothing... My brothers girlfriend slept with one of my brothers best friends in October and when my brother found out he wasn't exactly happy. Anyway, for three weeks after he found out he had a complete breakdown and all he did was drink and drink and drink. I still carried on going round to his flat because, well for 1. Why would that stop me? 2. He doesn't really talk to anyone else in the fa...

08 February 2015, 09:13 PM
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To my dearest friends,

I know I'm annoying and a pest, but I don't mean to be. It's just I don't want to be the one that's left out, abandoned when someone else that's better than me comes along and I guess by being a pest it's made you do it more. I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I was there when no one else was. I'm sorry that I was there to offer to pay for things , give you things because I didn't want you to feel left out when everyone had things that you didn't. I'm sorry I was trying to be a good friend. I might no...

26 January 2015, 11:54 AM
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Fate or Desperate?

The thought of trusting someone completely scares the hell out of me and I just excepted my future of being a lonely cat woman. However, recently me and my brothers friend have tried to give it a go. After several people telling me I'm going to get hurt, parents constantly giving me " I'm disappointed in you" speech and my brothers rampage I'm starting to wonder if he came at the right time and its going to be wonderfully romantic or its a disaster from the start. He makes me happy but is it ...

21 December 2014, 09:56 PM
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Am I dead? Okay,I know that sounds weird but let me explain. There are many theories about what happens when you die, and I never knew which one to believe until I watched a video.The theory in the video is that when you die you go into a parallel universe where you didn't actually die. For example: You are in a fire and you don't manage to get out. However you think you did because your in a parallel universe. Now,I know this theory has many flaws in it but I like the idea of it because yo...

24 June 2014, 11:37 PM
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He looked across the room and saw them. They were beautiful. Bright blue that you would fall into if your stared to long. Blonde hair falling down in little ringlets and framing their perfectly tanned skin.It was love at first sight. But there was one problem... ...They were the same sex.

10 April 2014, 02:50 PM
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Friends.

Today I tried something. It was like a test. I didn't feel good,a "curl up in a ball and cry" day but I didn't fake a smile and carrying on like I normally do. I was my sad self, my quiet and teary eyed self to self who would notice. No one did.

25 March 2014, 08:11 PM
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If you ever need someone to talk to,about anything. I'm here,always. I promise, I'll try and help,make you smile, be a friend. Whatever you need. secrets_of_a@outlook.com

28 February 2014, 10:04 PM
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I'm sorry. I'm sorry i don't have a gap between my thighs. I'm sorry you can't see my ribs. I'm sorry my collarbones don't stick out. I'm sorry me my cheekbones don't stand out. I'm sorry I want these things. I'm sorry. I'm sorry i have big thighs. I'm sorry my ribs are hidden. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm fat. I'm sorry I don't want these things. I'm sorry I can't accept it.

28 February 2014, 09:51 PM
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plans.

I got told today that if you plan your life,it will be better.No. You don't plan to go out in the middle night to watch the stars. You don't plan to kiss in the plan or to get lost on a road trip. Yeah, planning a holiday is better then no holiday, but you don't plan what you do there. If you don't plan anything,you won't get your hopes up.

18 February 2014, 09:56 PM
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1hlCEIUATzg

18 February 2014, 07:21 PM
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"I'm going on a diet." "You always say that.." "I know,but I'm going to be skinny if it kills me." Yep, you are skinny.. but it did nearly kill you. I mean you're so skinny i can see your bones but.. you're also lying in a hospital bed struggling to survive. So,was it really that worth it?

10 February 2014, 07:38 PM
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Update.

I'm sorry, I've been busy and haven't had time to update but I'm here now. Things are looking you know, I got Ed Sheeran tickets. And this is big because this man and his songs are the reason I'm still here so hearing him sing them live is incredible. I'm starting to feel happier,smiling without forcing myself too,joining conversations and having a good time. I know this year will be hard but I know it's worth it and this year will be great anyway.

18 January 2014, 08:24 PM
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Life is like a jigsaw. Once you have all the right pieces, you can make a pretty picture. But you have to find the pieces first.

03 January 2014, 01:05 PM
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http://www.defeatdepression.co.uk/defeat_depression_video. This may help you:) Good luck x

02 January 2014, 12:05 AM
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2014

I say it every year but.. this year is going to be the best. it has to,I mean it cant get worse. This year its my mission to figure out who I am, what I want to do with my life, and no one will stand in the way. I'm fed up of not being able to do what I want, doing what I'm told and feeling like I don't belong. if I don't belong here,fine. I'll find the place I am wanted.

01 January 2014, 03:02 PM
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Run away.

I want to pack a bag, go to the airport and get a ticket for the earliest plane to leave. I want to start over somewhere no one knows me, make happy memories, make friends. Just have a good time and do what I want and be happy.

21 December 2013, 09:08 PM
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Hey. Guess what? You guessed?yeah,well you are wrong,sorry. Just wanted to say your beautiful and i love you <3

18 December 2013, 04:07 PM
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Definition of depressed: a mental condition characterized by severe feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy, typically accompanied by a lack of energy and interest in life.

16 December 2013, 09:53 PM
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Mental. I'm pretty sure I am mental. I will talk to myself (in my head) and ask for advice on what to do rather than ask my friends or family. I prefer to be alone but yet crave the attention of just one person. I want someone to notice that I'm not okay but when/if people do notice, I say nothing. I spend my whole life denying things I want and need. That's not normal.

15 December 2013, 02:52 PM
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Please remember that tomorrow might be a great day.

14 December 2013, 05:35 PM
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