You are sentenced to death with no reason ... you are guilty with no sin ... you are punished while innocent ... This is how it feels to love and need someone who doesnt care . .
Totally depressed today ... I dont want to wait for anyone .. i want them to get back ... when will they return ... Why do i have to suffer? .. i need'm ... when will they hear my silent screams ... Lots of things cant be shared with anybody except them ... lots and lots of things are waiting for them to be told ... When thinking about this thing in an objective way i think that i am a stupid scum ... needin someone doesnt need me
I was supposed to be studying for my lab quiz since hours but i just cant stand myself checking different sites .. i think the internet addection has returned back ... damn it .. i rly need to get a high grade this time :'( ... wtt am i goin to do ... :(
Today i feel somehow optimistic .. i dont know why .. but im feeling'm around .. i can smell the past .. whatever, i know my wish is impossible to come a reality ... i guess it is not bad to dream
It is my first time writing a diary in my whole life ... I dont know what i should write as my first note .. but the only thing i know is that i have some words that need to get out... My days are getting "gloomier" day after another ... i dont know what to do to get out of this mood.. the only thing i am sure of is that i need to throw my self onto that shoulder and cry ...