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IDK

I am so tired and exhausted. I'm going through things I shouldn't go through. Family problems and inner problems are causing me to want to run away. I feel like shit. My family only seems to only worry bout what they want and need. Im so depressed. I try not to go back to cutting, but it seems like its only time I don't feel emotional pain. I love someone who dont want me or don know what he wants. I feel ugly everyday no matter who says other wise. When I need my friends they arent there or ...

26 October 2014, 05:03 PM
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What am I suppose to do

Like I finally realized no one will ever be there for me. I always am there for my friends but no one is ever there for me. Even though I should be worrying about going to college, I still worry about my social life. It's depressing knowing I'm alone in the world. I'm single, lonely, and my trust for people has depleted. Being single is a good thing though, I like that I can just focus on school and my family but I've gone through a lot and I still am. I can't do it all myself. I can't be st...

21 August 2014, 01:50 AM
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Great My life is ridiculous

I started talking to this dude, and he's a cool dude. I don't know why but I have started to like him and I don't want to because I know ain't nothing going to happen between us. But I can't stop thinking about him. When we talk it's like he takes away all the worries in my life. He makes me feel good about myself. I just don't want to like him. It's just setting me up to be hurt and feel stupid. Which quite frankly I do feel stupid now for liking someone I've never met. But his personality ...

05 August 2014, 08:16 AM
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How to react.

Everything in my life just seems to crumble in front of me. I am tired of being abused, and hurt, and ignored. Gosh, why can't I be happy. Everyone else is happy but not me. I am all alone in this world. No friends nobody can feel what I feel. Should I just end it. Should I run away from everyone and everything. I wouldn't matter to anyone besides my parents if I died. No one really talks to me. I am hated by people for expressing myself. Like wtf. No one is perfect. I get called a hoe a lot ...

03 June 2014, 02:38 AM
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Well I Missed Him..

Even though I just got out of a relationship, I want my other ex back. His name is Josh. He was so sweet to me and I really do miss him. While I was with the other dude he was all I ever thought about. I broke up with him but I regretted it. Since i'm single now I want him back. But he has someone else and now I feel like I don't mean nothing to him. He says he still loves me and he missed me and he wants to marry me but we can't work on us if we ain't together. I've been really depressed. I'...

03 June 2014, 02:22 AM
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Dealing with it...

I am going through a lot of stuff that is effecting my life right now. I am reliving the horror of something bad that happened to me. I don't know how to deal with it, and yet it is really effecting my love life as well as my over all life. How can I get over such a traumatic experience......

08 May 2014, 06:54 PM
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Moving on...

My life is rather better than it was last month. My mother just got out of the hospital and she is now vowing to stop smoking. Well of course she does smoke occasionally when she gets stressed. But she is doing a lot better. She now cooks more often and she is able to walk to and from places now. I have officially moved on from my ex. He is really nasty tho. I know some crap about him that is really fucked up but he really not gone care so whats the point of saying it. He really did hurt me t...

07 May 2014, 07:13 PM
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Why? What can I do?

Why not me? I haven't done anything but love you. I really don't mean nothing to you anymore. I'm trying so hard to get you back. And it's like you don't want me.What's the point of going on is you not with me? My life really is gone. The ounce of happiness I ever had is all gone. I made the mistake of letting you walk away. You enjoy what girls say to you. What about me? I'll change for you trust me I will. I just can't go on without you. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't let you go. ...

26 April 2014, 06:17 AM
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Life Sucks

I've been depressed for a long time and no one notices. I feel alone in this world. I feel like my feelings doesnt mean nothing to other people. I dont know what else to do but hurt myself to ease the pain. I cry 24/7 and even when I tell my so called friend, he act like he doesnt care. I feel like my life is crap and no one cares. I just wish someone could listen to me and help me instead of hurting me more. #feelingdead

19 April 2014, 03:29 PM
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