I really want to, and like to, help others. I want to help them realize there is more to life than they know. But how can I possibly help others when I can barely help myself?

14 November 2014, 04:09 AM
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Be patient

When is it gonna be my turn to be happy? When is it gonna be my turn to have someone that'll love me unconditionally? I know I shouldn't be thinking about this right now, but it sucks when everyone around you has something you don't. Every day that passes, we get closer to happier better days, I know, but waiting sometimes sucks.

06 November 2014, 02:40 AM
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I hate it how my favorite things remind me of the people I want to forget.

06 November 2014, 02:36 AM
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Numb

I remember last year when I was so numb to everything. The open wounds on my wrists did nothing to me. I was in a dark place. Things have gotten better, although not completely. It's hard to tell if they ever will, but I don't wanna lose hope. I just hate the fact that that numbness is coming back. The things that are happening to me are making me this way. I hate getting excited or looking forward to things cause something always goes wrong. I'm just getting ahead of myself, I guess. Honestl...

26 October 2014, 01:56 AM
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"You cannot save people. You can only love them."

I wish depression didnt exist. I dont like to see the people i love, or anyone, suffer day by day. I don't want them to feel lonely because they're not. I started talking to Alen again, and even though I knew he was having inner battles, I now understand this more. I like him a lot. I just want to see him happy even if it's not with me. I havent felt this way towards a guy in a long long time. It kills me when he puts himself down. He's so empty inside, yet full of emotions. I wish I could ...

13 October 2014, 03:38 AM
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pressure

Most of my cousins are starting to let their parents know about them dating & talking to boys. My mom has asked me various times if I'm talking to guys or if I'm dating anyone. I say no, but she doesn't believe me. She freaking asked me if I was gay. I said no. I'm totally not telling her about my sexuality any time soon. I'm truly not talking to anyone right now. I mean, most of the people that like me live in different states:( Crap man. I feel like I HAVE TO get a bf to prove her wrong. I ...

13 September 2014, 06:09 PM
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A couple weeks ago, I came out to my two closest friends. It was so sudden & happened so fast. We were talking about guys & I got the sudden urge to just come clean to them about my sexuality. I'm not sure if it was the perfect perfect time, but I just had to, I guess. Cause what's a friendship without honesty, right? I jokingly said, "Omg, what if I'm gay? lol" One of them said it was perfectly fine if I was gay. My other friend was super cool about it, too. She joked about it & even said sh...

11 September 2014, 02:55 AM
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Hopeless Crush

You by The Pretty Reckless on repeat tonight..

15 August 2014, 08:38 AM
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Lonely nights

I miss staying up late talking to someone. I guess I got used to having endless conversations about everything yet nothing at all. It always ends like this. It starts the same way, too. I meet someone online & we start off great, as friends. Eventually one of us catches feelings & then everything gets awkward. I never fall for the right people. The ones I do like do not like me. I don't know. Everything has changed. Hopefully something good comes out of all this. Nights like these help me ref...

15 August 2014, 06:13 AM
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invisible

I really really wanna text you. I'll regret it if I do. I'll feel like I'm annoying you. What did I do wrong? I was really awkward, I guess, but what was I to do when your eyes looked at me? I couldn't help but feel butterflies in my stomach & sound like a dumbass. God, if only you could see how good we'd be for each other. If only you got to know me. If only.. I'm invisible to you, I know. I confused the whole situation & fell for you head over heels. I guess it's ok. I'll get over it  & I...

14 August 2014, 07:26 AM
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Time will tell

I had one of those kinda drunk deep convos with my two best friends today. We, in a way, poured our hearts out & told one another how beautiful & great we are. For a moment the urge to tell them about my sexuality took over me. I decided not to, though. I feel bad that I didn't. I mean, they're my best friends & I love them dearly, but the fear of being looked at weird seems unbearable to me. I guess I just don't accept myself yet. I'll have to explain to them all this nonsense about "I like ...

10 August 2014, 08:26 AM
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hide me

I just made this account. I've been meaning to do this for couple days now & I just got to it. It'll be a way for me to say whatever I want without worrying about what other think. I just hope nobody recognizes who I am..

10 August 2014, 08:08 AM
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