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Coffee-based life

12 de noviembre de 2013. I haven't written anything in quite a long time. I've been stressed out - I still am - with all the coursework I have to hand in… I'm the kind of person who always leaves everything till the last minute and this is something I have to change as much as my timetable. I keep going to bed late and waking up early for my lectures having slept less than five hours - usually even less. Therefore, I am always tired to get any work done in the afternoon and I live off coffee...

12 November 2013, 05:17 PM
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Vulnerable

6 de noviembre de 2013. Yesterday I was feeling vulnerable. A lot of stuff has been going on. From the twelve people who live in my house on campus, ten of us want to continue living together next year so we had to divide us in two five-people groups and try to look for two houses nearby. Yesterday we made the groups. I love everyone in my house and I don't really mind who I live with next year, but I was hoping to live at least with one of the two persons who I'm closest to. But for some ...

06 November 2013, 06:27 PM
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Ghosts?

3 de noviembre de 2013. I certainly believe some kind of spirits exist. That after death, a part of your soul remains alive. This is a subject that I've currently been discussing quite a lot with my flatmates, especially with X. The fact that he is completely unable to believe there are things that can not be explained scientifically frustrates me. It makes me think he is plan and narrow minded. I am not a religious person, but I do believe the are still somethings that go beyond science. Fo...

03 November 2013, 05:15 PM
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There's always a light at the end of the tunnel

28 de octubre de 2013. The picture in this entry is an old photo of Axl Rose. The vocalist of Guns n Roses. He has the sexiest voice on Earth and he used to also have the sexiest looks - but he's 50 and fat now. He has been an inspiration for me lately - I even drew a portrait of him! I am happy to say that X and I are good again. We talked about it - a bit drunk, but we talked about it - and we're back on track being friends with benefits. Although we are aware that we both have other peop...

28 October 2013, 11:19 AM
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1 month

25 de octubre de 2013. It's been one month since I started the diary. I'm surprised! This is actually the longest I have gone writing in a diary in my whole life. So many things have happened in this month... But little has happened in the last few days. Last night, although I didn't do any work during the afternoon, I decided to go out. It was a fine night. I was pretty drunk and ended up with our JCR, who was hitting on me, alone in the club. I lost my flatmates - which apparently keeps h...

24 October 2013, 11:04 PM
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Inspiration corner

23 de octubre de 2013. I've created myself a little "Inspiration corner" in my board where I hang some drawings I've been making. I had forgotten how good it feels to draw. It's relaxing - although it sometimes keeps me from doing any real work - and whenever I'm feeling a little bit down, I just concentrate on what I want to draw and it all goes away. I still haven't done much work here... The objective of today's afternoon - which I haven't started fulfilling - is to read about 100 pages ...

23 October 2013, 05:08 PM
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Back to work!

21 de octubre de 2013. This weekend has been slightly weird. I went to Manchester for a night out on Friday. I've got a friend in uni there and another friend from Barcelona was coming to visit so I thought I'd meet them to see some familiar faces - my two ginger friends! We had a great night with her friends from uni and I loved seeing a couple friends from home. However, when I came back to Lancaster I started to feel extremely homesick. Even though I've got friends here, I have no real f...

21 October 2013, 11:14 AM
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Fun

17 de octubre de 2013. I missed my first lecture today. I've always been a good student, always been responsible and a little bit nerdy when it came to school. But uni is so different... I'm finding it hard to adapt to the English educational system. Too much freedom, little contact hours and a lot of self studying. I feel like I'm deceiving myself someway, because I know I won't be able to do as good in uni as I did in school, back in Spain. But it's just been two weeks... I'm still not put...

17 October 2013, 06:17 PM
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There is no pain, I'm just receding

15 de octubre de 2013. No, there is no pain. But I can't help feeling a little down tonight. Everything has been good so far, but after spending about three hours cleaning all the house by myself (it's supposed to be my cleaning day, but I'm supposed to do it with someone else), I feel a little bit like I have always felt. I know it's kind of dramatic probably, but I have always felt exploited by people. I like doing things for the others, it makes me feel good, but sometimes it reaches a po...

15 October 2013, 10:21 PM
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Fighting low self-esteem

I know I have posted before today, but there is one more thing I'd like to write about. I have been thinking about this for a while... About three years ago or so I had a problem with bulimia. Since I was very young, I had been the "fat" one at school and boys would come to me and insult me for being fat. The worst thing is that I have never been a big eater and I do exercise... I just have it in my genes. Throughout all of my life I have wished to be thin. Even when I was an 8 year old gir...

14 October 2013, 05:33 PM
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Nostalgia

14 de octubre de 2013. Barcelona. That's my hometown, where I had all my life built before coming here. I am enjoying my time here and I'm building a "new" life here but I can't help get nostalgic every now and then... My friends - my real friends - are far, far away from me and although we Skype quite frequently, it is not the same. I miss them. I miss my friends, my family, my city... Whenever I go out for a cigarette by myself, I listen to music, music that brings good memories into my h...

14 October 2013, 04:55 PM
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Making love, making friendship

13 de octubre de 2013. Making love should always involve love. In my case, though, last night I made friendship. I don't really know where this is going... I have put my heart in an ice box, retaining it from growing any strong feelings towards X (from now on this is how I'll call him here), because we both decided to stay friends. But are we mature enough to be just friends with benefits? For the moment, I am handling it quite good. For the first time in my life I feel like I've been able...

13 October 2013, 01:30 PM
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Adaptation

12 de octubre de 2013. First week of lectures is over. This is starting to get serious. I'm really loving England. Being a Spaniard in the UK might be an inconvenience sometimes, especially regarding the language, but I'll get used to it. On the other hand, English people find Spaniards interesting and exotic, so even though sometimes I might encounter some difficulties while speaking, they are always nice and friendly to me. (I have to highlight that this isn't all good. It is an advanta...

12 October 2013, 05:38 PM
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Those magic moments

9 de octubre de 2013. Sitting down by myself just for 30 minutes watching how the sun carefully sets behind the English green fields is priceless. I love being alone sometimes. Living with eleven other people doesn't allow you much space. Even when I'm in my room, I can hear my flatmates going in and out and it makes it hard to put everything aside and concentrate on my thoughts and feelings. A beautiful sunset, inspirational music and a relaxing cigarette was all I needed yesterday afternoo...

10 October 2013, 12:39 AM
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Inspiration

Paz. Armonía. Ilusión.

07 October 2013, 06:03 PM
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Freshers flu

7 de octubre de 2013. Not only I have the freshers' flu, but also, since I'm a smoker, I have spent most of the day coughing. I hate it. It seems like my life depends on tissues now... And it certainly pulls me back from doing something I keep thinking about... As I mentioned in other entries, I'm actually kind of into someone. Saying it's "complicated" might sound cliché, but it IS complicated. I know he is interested in me and I'm certain he know it's mutual, but we've only known each oth...

07 October 2013, 05:45 PM
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Buen comienzo...

6 de octubre de 2013. Tengo mi primera clase como universitaria mañana a las 9am y aquí estoy. A las 2am escribiendo en mi diario mientras, además, debería estar leyendo un artículo que debería haber leído antes. Muy bien Inés, ¡muy bien! Quería irme a dormir pronto. De verdad que hoy me iba a acostar pronto... Pero me he quedado acurrucadita en el sofá encima de uno de mis flatmates y no quería moverme de ahí. No voy a enrollarme más porque quiero leer el artículo, ponerme el pijama e irm...

07 October 2013, 02:01 AM
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Freshers' Week 2013

5 de octubre de 2013. "Grizedale til I die, I'm Grizedale til I die. I know I am, I'm sure I am, I'm Grizedale til I die!" - Yes, this our anthem, and, yes, I am really enjoying Freshers' Week here at Lancaster University. Today is our last night before starting uni for real. Although I might just skip it... Some of us have the freshers' flue and we're having a foam party which would make it pretty worse. And also, if I go there, I'll have to face some people who I'm not ready to face. Bac...

05 October 2013, 05:34 PM
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New life? Or just more life?

30 de septiembre de 2013 I like being here. It doesn't feel like home, obviously, but I'm starting to feel quite comfortable around these people. Luckily, out of the twelve of us who live here, there is one Spanish girl. Speaking in Spanish makes me feel less homesick - as if I weren't that far away from Barcelona. Plus, there are plenty of Spanish people around the campus. I got my student card today. Scary. It makes everything seem so serious... I am really hoping for the best. I want thi...

30 September 2013, 02:14 PM
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I like this

I thought I wouldn't survive my first day alone here. Being left by myself in a new country sounded pretty scary... It was at first... But then I got to know these people better (a few drinks actually worked to get rid of my shyness) and right now I feel quite comfortable. Besides, I've met a few Spanish people - one of them lives right next door to me - and this is kind of a support to me. I would explain something else but I just got inside my bed and I'm really tired - maybe a little tipsy...

30 September 2013, 04:33 AM
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