I can't move

I can't find the words, I can't answer to people,I can't get up, I can't sleep, I am scared of myself, I am scared of life, I need to hide but there is no more arms surrounding me, but no right to search for it either.

03 January 2015, 04:23 AM
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I am alone

there is no one to help me anymore, no one i can talk to, no one to tell me what to do, i wanna screaam for help but i don't have the right, i can't do it by myself 2nd January 2015

03 January 2015, 04:20 AM
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this time I really can't say this

I've slept with this guy. The one that scrares her... he has caramel skin and black eyes and tattoos on his chest. we did it all night long till 7 am and then in the morning too. At first I only wanted to play, and he did that stuff she does, but then we did other stuff she can't do...

08 January 2014, 10:24 PM
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primitive feeling

Laying on her warm and soft tummy between her strong legs, cheek against her breast, everything was calm, it was heaven, I could have stayed there like a baby for hours.

10 June 2013, 11:56 PM
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I doesnt happen to me often

but I wish I could talk about that with someone. About everything, about food, about her, about the sadness. I wanna talk.

10 June 2013, 11:45 PM
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this is riduculous

But I have to write it. I love her. Not only like friends. I want her and her heat and body because she attracts me because I love her. For once I am the one wishing to be a boy because I want to hold her hips because seing all of her muscles tightening up makes me feel so good. I do that to her. Yes. I see it clearly when I am between her soft and strong thights.

10 June 2013, 05:02 AM
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Why was I even crying

I don't know wether I was proud of myself because I was decided not to throw up today, but then I though I was such a pussy, I was weak not to do it, but I was stong to have the will not to do it, I was proud... anyways I did it

14 May 2013, 12:49 AM
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I am such a slut

I am always scared of hurting her, of going too fast, of reminding her the wrong boys she met, of making her feel bad but I want her so much, I want to be one with her

13 May 2013, 12:02 AM
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please

I have to do it fuck I need to i'm gonna explode I want to throw myself up till im not there anymore, I don't want to feed myself to exist, make it empty, quick

08 May 2013, 12:20 AM
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why

I need her why do we always have to leave for the most llong and terribe time; weeks. I can't bear to imagine people looking at her, I can't help eating, I am useless and discusting, I wana sleep all week long but I can't sleep

07 May 2013, 02:51 AM
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I am so in love

I cant believe how she makes me happy, we cuddled and walked and looked at the sky all weekend long this is perfect

06 May 2013, 02:27 AM
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die

puke fucking bitch kill yourself slowly... aw for a fucking exam you won't do it, tu be okay ? fucking looser

02 May 2013, 12:00 AM
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fuck

I wanna puke until my heart comes out

02 May 2013, 12:00 AM
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sex

I loved her because she was like a boy, I liked to feel her short hair, I liked her loose sweathers, her guy attitude. But now I am in love with her curves, her protective woman look, her moanings...

25 April 2013, 04:36 AM
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what if

I would basically call her y girlfriend? That would be weird. We are too special, I don't want words to get in that way. But I felt weirdly good when this popular girl asked me about it, it was comforting, she accepted that, its the fist person to talk about that seriously.

17 April 2013, 04:25 AM
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cut

I almost forgot that feeling of calm when the blood starts to flow

15 April 2013, 09:32 PM
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what am I

I am supposed to love boys. But it feels so good when her tights are tightened against me, when she doesnt want me to see I make her effect but her breath becomes deeper, I had slept with boys but its different, I want to make her stop thinking

09 April 2013, 02:31 AM
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stupid me

I just remembered (actually she told me) that I had slept with another girl in her bed years ago. I didn't even love that other girl. And she already loved me.

07 April 2013, 10:27 PM
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fuck the world

I mean really i fuck up everything there is no fucking use I love her so much but she can't trust me

04 April 2013, 11:09 PM
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so

I weight 110 lbs. for 5''7. It's way to much, I should weight 100 lbs. but to the most of my efforts i've weighted 105 lbs. So starve, puke and i'll be a pretty bitch for the prom, 2 months and a half of maximum suffering.

03 April 2013, 03:47 PM
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