i may be lonely here but i'd rather be lonely somewhere else

01 September 2014, 05:48 AM
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i have many thoughts currently. this happens mostly when i am sick, i am unsure why. but it's 1134 pm 8.31.14 and mind is like a rainbow right now. so full of color and ideas. i need to express it!!! i want to explore. i want to travel. i want to do cool things. i cant wait for homecoming moomoos tummy looks smooth i want to kiss it they're so peaceful lorde is great i am so ready for fall why cant it be 2004 not 2014 dafuq i want to have a deep conversation rn not some bullshit how ...

01 September 2014, 05:43 AM
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im not going to be poetic today no punctuation either i just want to talk hope someone listens. im just in a really depressed mood and its weird i get in spurts of happiness and spurts of depression and i dont know if that is depression which its probably not but it feels close to it. im just really sad. i've been replaced. im not anyones first choice no one wants to hang out with me over someone else no one texts me first. they always wonder why do you hate it here so much? oh idk maybe beca...

17 June 2014, 01:53 AM
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how can you lose something that was never even yours to begin with?

17 May 2014, 05:39 AM
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you asked me "who do you like?" i said no one but it was killing me i got choked up breathless i wanted to say you but that can't be you'd never like me and i dont know why im so sad why am i upset you were never even mine

17 May 2014, 05:39 AM
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i just did a very bad thing why did i do that

17 May 2014, 04:36 AM
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is it bad that i want to date someone without doing sexual things? like i just want someone who give me kisses but not makeout with or have sex with because i dont really want to do that to be honest. i just want someone to be there for me and will love me and i will love them like i want to do things with them and just be happy together i don't know why sexual activities have to define a relationship and i dont want to do that i just want to be free. is that weird?

16 May 2014, 01:43 AM
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i dont understand you we're your friends too but you sit here and put all these people that you just become friends with and put them in front of us like were your backup friends and all of you have other friends and you guys are the only ones i have but i guess we really arent anything. i dont know what im going to do this summer becuase youre going to be with all these other people. i need new friends

16 May 2014, 01:38 AM
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i need new friends i need someone who will drive aimlessly for hours and we can just talk for hours or not talk at all and just look at the surroundings around us and just someone to listen to music with or just be spontaneous with like hey lets go for a drive or lets go to the park just call each other up and go do something why can't i have someone i can do that with

16 May 2014, 01:38 AM
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im not feeling poetic i just need to talk

im not going to put this in a poem format because frankly im not feeling poetic i just need to get my thoughts out. i have too many thoughts. i think things and i dont say them and when i do say what i feel i feel embarrassed i have a constant fear of people judging me i don't know if it's normal but its with everything i dont know why. why won't my dadturn the air on? its so hot in my room. im sweating and he doesn't care. am i an annoying person? i don't know. like in any group i join no on...

08 May 2014, 02:41 AM
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its kinda sorta funny i'm not depressed i'm not happy i'm not okay I'm just sad I mean yeah i'm happy to an extent I have food, water, a house, nice clothes, a lot of things I want but that's a different happiness and it's not like I have a real reason to be sad I just am and that drives me insane I can think about it for hours and it never bores me it's kinda like if you asked me do you have friends? I would say yes and no when I say yes I mean yeah I have friends i'm a likeable person I ha...

07 February 2014, 02:46 AM
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i don't understand school i don't get how i try my hardest at every homework assignment my math teacher has given me and yet i'm failing i try really hard in fact i just can't get it teachers make me feel so dumb like i don't get math its just this concept and then they keep adding stupid terms and letters to it just to add more difficulty but i can guarantee i will NEVER use this. what is algebra helping? nothing i don't know one person who uses it besides math teachers and students do you t...

04 February 2014, 03:19 AM
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isn't it funny how even in a crowded room you can still have this emptiness hollow lonely you can't escape it and no matter how hard you fight it it's there its never ending and it sucks even when i'm with my friends because I know they would all choose someone over me and its really sad how I can't enjoy being with my friends without having this infinite loneliness only 2 more years and then at least even if i'm lonely i'll be somewhere I want to be not stuck in this town

26 January 2014, 06:57 PM
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i think it's funny how when i was little i didn't ever want to miss school i loved seeing my friends and jumping rope and playing truth or dare by that rusty soccer goal post but now i don't ever want to go to school i skipped today it's too hard i hate the people and the classes and the teachers and the homework and no understands no matter how many times i ask my parents well maybe i could transfer next year or do online schooling its not going to change they don't understand how much i ha...

23 January 2014, 10:07 PM
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i like the rush of the traffic in the city i like how it never sleeps i like how it's never actually night time i like how it's always bright and i like listening to my favorite song no matter how many times I've listened to it it will never get old i get that rush and it gives me that real feeling and it makes me wish i was in the city to see the lights and the sounds of motors of cars and the commotion of busy people going from one place to the next

23 January 2014, 02:21 AM
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i'm scared of everyone i'm scared to talk to people because of that constant fear that they are judging me and that's why I can't carry out a conversation that's why I talk in small talk that's why I use the same phrases over and over and over that's why I shake and start tapping my fingers because i'm nervous my palms get sweaty and I start to get panicky I can't talk to anyone I can't trust anyone and the sad thing about all of this is that nothing ever to bad has happened to me no one has...

23 January 2014, 02:13 AM
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