why do I put myself through the pain.
why do I put myself through the pain of looking at photo's of my cousin. Who's dead. But what makes it worse is that he wanted to die before he killed himself i was not seeing what was happening in the world around me. Then when he shot himself i started to feels sad and angry then when that past suicidal and mix that in with the pain he caused me. I don,t no what to do i want to get rid of this pain and i feel like why live if we are going to die?