I don't know what's happening. Everything was going so well, but now it seems like everything is falling apart. He was so excited about the baby, getting our own place, starting a family, and getting married. His fuse seems to get shorter and shorter everyday for no particular reason. God knows how much I love him and how much I want be with him...but he's making it so hard right now. The other day he blew up on me, because we're moving in with my cousin and out of his parent's house. I got a...

24 March 2011, 03:55 AM
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Memory Lane

Today is my little sister's birthday. She's turning 13 years old and what the hell happened to the little girl who wasn't developing a chest or talking about boyfriends. It's so crazy how life just flashes before your eyes. It's like one minute all I wanted was to get out of my mom's house and into my own place, but never in a million years, did I think I was going to want to be back here. I miss watching my siblings grow up. I miss being here with them everyday. I can't stand this distance a...

21 October 2010, 07:02 AM
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STEVEN HERNANDEZ-INMATE

Who is he to yell at me after I bailed him out of jail? Who is he to tell me how I should live my life after I just bailed him out of jail? To get mad at me because I used some batteries that belonged to him is so wrong. I just paid $425 to bail him out of jail just the other day and he's going to bitch about batteries that I can get for free from work? REALLY???!!!! I felt that I was doing the right thing by getting him out, but I just should have left his ass in there for a little while lon...

18 September 2010, 11:26 PM
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No desire for sex "/

For some reason I haven't been in the mood to have sex. I don't initiate it AT ALL anymore...I don't have the desire to sleep with my boyfriend of 15 months...and I can't figure out why. In my eyes, he's perfect. He really is good when it comes to sex, but I just don't get in the mood. I've read some articles on websites to see if it's normal and it is...for women who've had kids...are between the ages of like 20 and 30...who are about to go through or ARE going through menopause...but why me...

14 August 2010, 04:58 PM
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24 Hour Fitness =]

I went to 24 Hour Fitness today to check the place out to see if I'd be interested in purchasing a membership. The guy that was supposed to show me around was, Jaime, but when I arrived he was on his break. A guy came down the stairs and went to the front desk by where I was and asked the receptionist something. I thought he was the manager because he came at a time that a manager was called. Low and behold this guy wasn't the manager. He turned around (and mind you, from the back he was pret...

04 August 2010, 05:06 AM
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PORNOGRAPHY!! What the hell would the world do without it. If it was never invented guys probably wouldn't have the urge to jack off so much...I, personally, wouldn't have been introduced to sex at such an early age...and wouldn't have started masterbating at such a young age. As bad as that sounds...but I did. Now that I have a boyfriend though the only time I masterbate is when he's not around to pleasure me. What's weird though is I don't orgasm without the help of my hand a or a vibrator ...

19 September 2009, 04:44 PM
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His name was Uterus.

I had a dream last night...a really weird dream. The first part of the dream had a tornado in it. I saw it in the distance, probably about a mile away...it was flat land. I was in a house with Steven and some other girl, I'm not really sure who it was. The house was set up like my apartment, but it wasn't in a complex. Through our kitchen there's a sliding glass door that leads to a small patio, a fence, then a sidewalk. Well in the dream, past the sidewalk was a bigger fence about 6-7 feet t...

16 September 2009, 09:11 PM
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Life is hard. Living on your own is not as easy as it seems. For some it might be, but it just isn't what I thought it would be when I first moved out. I figured it was going to be smooth sailing. I thought that with a job I was going to be fine and dandy. Boy was I wrong. I'm just no good with money I suppose. Right now Steven and I are on the verge of getting evicted because of past due rent. The thing is though, he just got another job, and I'm in the process of HOPEFULLY getting one. I ha...

15 September 2009, 08:24 PM
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I'm only human!!!

I woke up this morning on the couch at my parents' house. My mom came and got me yesterday so I could spend time with the family. I called Steven a few times yesterday to talk to him and see what he was up to. He answered every time I called too. When I woke up this morning I watched some tv and waited for my mom get back from the store. Like I knew she would she asked me to help her cook. My little sister and I did so. At around 12-1-ish I called steven, but I was about to leave with my mom ...

07 September 2009, 06:12 AM
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One of these days I'm just going to come out and say it. It's just one of those things that lingers, it's one of those things that's right there, and it's also one of those things that's hardest to say; I love you. Steven and I have been together for roughly 5 months. I STILL haven't told him I love him, even though I KNOW I do...so I don't know what's stopping me. I know I want to do it at the right time, and it's weird how this seems to be harder than losing my virginity. I'm more hesitant ...

06 September 2009, 03:21 AM
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A little less than a week ago Steven and I went to his "friend's" house...I don't even remember why. This friend of his though, is an ex girlfriend/fuckbuddy...whatever you want to call it. They were together for about a year...and then some. Apparently he owes her money so instead of paying it back he just cleans her house. So we've been there for a week basically being stay-at-the-house maids. His ex, Amy, bitches about EVERYTHING. It's so annoying. OHOH...i remember why we were there. We h...

20 August 2009, 08:26 PM
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The miata that Steven and I were driving around was sold on Sunday. It was kind of fucked up what we did to the first guy to come see it though. His name was Glenn...a happy-go-lucky guy who seemed close to impossible to make mad. Glenn test drove the car, looked at the damage, and then gave Steven a down payment of $400. The price we were asking for the car was fourteen hundred. Steven signed a piece of paper that said that he was receiving that amount from Glenn, with the date and a place f...

13 August 2009, 07:47 AM
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My alarm was set for 6:30 this morning because last night I had the urge to just get up and run. I should have known myself better than that because I aboslutely HATE running, and I should have known I wasn't going to wake up to do so. After tossing and turning an ungodly amount of times last night I woke up. I looked at my phone and it was 6:10 am. I went to the restroom. When I walked out the bathroom door steven(my boyfriend) had his dog wrapped up in the sheet on the bed. This dog of his,...

28 July 2009, 05:10 PM
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