I'm back!

Hey! I just realised I used to have an account here, and I thought I'd catch up with things, considering a lot has changed!! I started these diary entries over a year ago, and now I'm 17, a whole year on! Since I last wrote, I got a new boyfriend in which it will be our 6 months "anniversary" tomorrow, I've completed a year at college and I'm currently waiting to get my results back, I'm looking at unis is preparation for the next step in my life, I've met so many amazing people online this y...

13 August 2016, 11:40 PM
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Just quickly

Just whilst I remember, I got a boyfriend!!

05 September 2015, 04:57 PM
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Fed up! - 06/08/2015

I'm fed up of feeling like crap. I'm fed up of picking myself up only to be thrown back down again. I didn't realise till my parents came back, how much they've affected me emotionally. How vulnerable and anxious they make me feel. I'm fed up of feeling like I'm trapped in my room because anything beyond this will just damage me. I'm tired of every morning waking up, and trying to figure out whether my dad's in a good mood or not. If he isn't, I'm sure to be shouted at. Results day is in 2 we...

06 August 2015, 05:05 PM
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Then there were three....

So, my parents left on Sunday at 7:00AM (today's Tuesday) to go to York for their 20th wedding anniversary. And what do you do when your parents are "out of town"? PARTY!! Jokes, I opted for a quiet night in instead:) Anyway, so Sunday night, my brother invited three of his friends round. I embarrassed myself in front of them before going upstairs and playing xbox with my other brother. They left fairly early so then we chilled downstairs and went to bed. Monday: I invited my friend round for...

04 August 2015, 08:12 PM
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New Planet discovered!

So I read on NASA today that they've discovered a new planet that's being described as "Earth's cousin" I don't know why, but this science breakthrough has breathed new life into me, excuse the pun!

25 July 2015, 12:20 AM
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23/07/2015

Okay, so there's two things I want to talk about today. One is do to with a comment/website I've found. The other is about the new planet discovery. Oh, and maybe one more on yesterday's tea. I'm saying this now so I don't forget. So the other day, someone commented on one of my posts, something really inspirational and uplifting. Unfortunately, my computer isn't letting me reply to the comment so I just hope you're reading this now - "clokinz." First of all, I'd like to say thanks for writi...

24 July 2015, 12:21 AM
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16/07/2015

So.. my dad. Well after my parents argument, things are gradually going back to normal. My dad said he wanted a divorce, to sell the house, split their savings and go their separate ways. This may have upset me back in the day, but I'm tired of feeling anything but good. I'm tired of feeling. Anyway, so now dad's talking to everyone again and things are calming down. The thing is, for the first time ever, I don't feel right around him. Usually we all run back to him once he returns to his nor...

16 July 2015, 02:36 AM
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I cried

I cried tonight, the first time in a while. After reading the "suicide notes" book (in one day I might add), I began reflecting on my own life. And because that's what happens whenever I stay up late! It suddenly dawned on me, I hated a lot of my high school life because no one cared. No one bothered to check up on me, ask how I was doing. Teachers always have time for their favourites, I was never a favourite. My maths teacher, for example, always kept one of my pretty friends behind, purely...

16 July 2015, 02:30 AM
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Village Fete

So today was overall quite good. Nan came over and her, mum, my older brother and I all headed to the fete. To be honest with you, none of us really enjoyed it but it was still funny! And it was so nice to see nan in a jolly mood, I was really hyper so we both got on really well together. She seemed to enjoy herself so I'm really glad she's doing okay now! I also showed her some stuff about technology which made her really excited, it was so sweet to watch! Mum also bumped into an old friend ...

12 July 2015, 01:48 AM
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Lack of Help

I suddenly feel like ranting about mental health in schools. When I think about how much I suffered at times, I get so angry, I know it wouldn't have taken much to help me! This isn't a post to make you feel sorry for me, I just want to raise awareness and put closure on this whole topic, for others and myself. Throughout year 10 and 11, things happened in my life that caused me to have depression, anxiety and OCD. It's only that I've gathered self acceptance that I feel okay to share this an...

10 July 2015, 09:56 PM
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TV

I thought I'd briefly state what I have been watching recently. So, TV programmes: Finding Carter, America's Next Top Model, Virgin Territories, Awkward, the Carrie diaries and I think that's it. Films: Identity thief, Tammy, Ocean's 11, 12 and 13, Letters to Juliet, Magic Mike XXL, Pitch Perfect 2, Aladdin and a few more I can't remember! Book: The Death Cure (Maze Runner series) Fav song: Shut up and Dance by walk the moon. That's pretty much everything at the moment.

10 July 2015, 06:01 PM
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To the Beach!

The day before our holiday (on Wednesday) my family (minus Dad for medical reasons) and my older brother's girlfriend all went to Barry Island (beach). It was really fun because even though it was slightly cold, we all got on really well with the new addition, I find her so interesting and we're both pretty similar people. The seagulls kept trying to attack which we all found really funny and we just generally had a good time. It was nice to just chill for a few days!

10 July 2015, 05:53 PM
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Holiday!

So, this year we went on a spontaneous holiday to Devon (England). We started by staying in a B&B on Thursday in Torquay. For the whole journey down and for half the day there, it was pouring down with rain. We sat and had a KFC, literally hating life! After checking in to the B&B (which was extremely nice!) we went out and walked to the harbour. It was such a nice day and the view was really amazing! It's like the UK's version of Monaco (I think anyway). We then went to the beefeater (I had ...

10 July 2015, 01:23 PM
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Prom!(And after prom)

I had such a good time at prom!It was all over so quickly though! So, I started getting ready at about 3:30, prom started 4 hours after this. I went in our family car with my twin brother and my parents. We then had photos at school before going to the venue. At the venue, we had our photos done, ate/drank and we danced. Overall, it was quite good! Although, the teachers' sort of separated themselves from us which wasn't the best. At 11:15, we left to after prom. I went back to my friend's ho...

10 July 2015, 01:07 PM
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Day trips

I just remembered, I did other things before "my job" disaster. One of those was going to Birmingham with one of my friends. Now, considering I live in the countryside, this quite a step up for me. I went round the day before, we handed our revision guides back into school and then went back to hers. After tidying her room and grabbing some pizza and cola, we watched Ocean's 11. I can't emphasise enough how good this film is! It's a bit like Hustle (the tv show) so yeah, we watched that and t...

10 July 2015, 12:34 PM
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Long time no see!

So, I bet you're wondering how my life's going? And if not then you should be! I have quite a lot to fill you in on so this will probably be split between different notes. First things first: my job! On the 25th June, a day before prom, dad dropped a bomb shell. He hadn't spoke to me up to this point but started warming to the rest of the family. I was in the shower when dad stormed into my room and shouted "where is she?!" My twin brother told him and was then called down stairs. Dad said ev...

10 July 2015, 12:25 AM
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Father's Day

I'm so hurt! Since the argument about my job (dad shouting at mum about it but hasn't said one word about it to me) everything's turned sour. When I woke up, dad had gone out. I spoke with my mum and my brothers and they helped me see dad's point of view but they also understood where I was coming from. I decided to sit down with Dad, as adults, and just talk about it. However, when he got back he just barged past me. He then put his headphones on and blanked everyone. When he went and got hi...

21 June 2015, 02:10 PM
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Day - Not a Clue! (19/06/15)

I'm feeling quite enlightened so I thought I'd chat on here for a bit, a lot has happened since the last time we spoke. I have left school (thank god), I went to my friend's house/ Birmingham which was fun, I got a job! oh, and I masturbated for the first time. Just as an add on, I've finished watching awkward and now I'm watching finding carter. The job is an 8 hour shift, covered over both Saturday and Sunday. This is fine for me at the moment as I have 3 months off so the rest of the week ...

19 June 2015, 11:40 PM
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Day 26 - continued

I thought I might want to keep this in my memory, so I'm going to roughly explain it now for you. Basically, we had a free for two hours so Lauren, Sylvia and I decided to go to the park. We were there for about an hour, just evaluating our lives really. After this, we walked back up to school. Charlie shorty arrived after. We then all walked to Top shop and then came back. After about 5 minutes, we decided (mainly Charl) to go and get some chips. So back we went, I think you'll remember just...

11 June 2015, 07:56 PM
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Day 26 (I think)

So, I bet you're wondering where I've been? haha, sorry, I haven't really been bothered this week! To be fair though, I've had 8 exams in the space of 10 days. So I sent off my job application the other day (along with James) and I managed to get an interview! I went there yesterday, it was quite nerve-wrecking. I had a History exam yesterday morning and then I caught the bus home at break. I was going to catch the bus into Worcester but Dad was home (injured) so he offered to take me. I we...

11 June 2015, 07:08 PM
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