Day 20

Well this week has been really stressful! I had my history, maths, biology and music exams which I have a feeling I've failed them all. The maths was extremely hard and about 70,000 tweets were made about it. It started trending at one point which led to it all being mentioned on the radio and news such as BBC, Sky and ITV. It was ridiculously hard though! I'm also going to a cafe and post office tomorrow to hand in my CV. I'm also applying for a few things online so I need to edit my CV and ...

11 June 2015, 06:52 PM
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Day 15

I'm back! I really could not be bothered yesterday, I was way to "drunk tired" to be on here! My head is basically all over the place right now. My brother just got back from uni so I'm really glad/relieved to see him again . My history exam is tomorrow so I'm full on freaking out! We've barely been taught any of it as the teachers' barely in, I just don't want to fail. As well as this, I found out the minim age for clothes shop jobs is 16. I always assumed it was 17, so now I'm trying to thi...

31 May 2015, 11:50 PM
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Day 13

That side note really has not worked. I'll briefly explain my day so you can remember. So I had another revision session today which we arrived early for, we then went to co op as it was raining and the doors were locked. It was quite funny as my friend's step dad took us, so it was all just a laugh. I did learn quite a lot though, I've gained slight confidence now that I could actually pass Chemistry (Maybe!) So today has mainly been spend wildly wondering about the origins of the universe ...

29 May 2015, 11:46 PM
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Day 12

Side note: I really should not leave these entries till last minute when I can barely keep my eyes open, let alone spell! Anyways, today was different as it was biology revision day. So having to wake up early wasn't exactly the highlight of my day. A good thing though is that I remembered the website 7 cups of tea. I've re-logged into my account (Listener: Nicola2468) to try and help people out. I know practically every teenager feels the same way I do at one point, whether for years or only...

28 May 2015, 10:54 PM
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Day 11

I don't have a clue what to write about, Originally I started with a philosophical idea about erasing my nail colour and starting afresh. Then I thought about writing about how I want to change up my style. Then I was going to settle with the whole "talk you through my day" which mainly involved a bit of outside revision and watching TV. So instead, I thought I'd do something more cliché; write a list of some of my favourite quotes(not in order): "Some people feel the rain, others just get we...

28 May 2015, 12:24 AM
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Day 10

Everyday i ask myself if I'm okay? I don't know why, just a natural response I guess.And the thing is, I'm not. I need some structure in my life and someone to tell me what to do. I take it back, I can't be independent. I just wish I had someone in my life who could control/organise everything for me. Someone to show me the future so I don't have to worry. So many of my friends and family manage to live in the moment, but for some reason, I can't handle that! There are just so many people ar...

26 May 2015, 11:53 PM
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Day 9

I'm confused. I don't know what to feel, how to feel .I'm just a small tadpole in a sea of uncertainty! I feel a sense of wanting to belong, without belonging at all. You see, society also gives you a choice of who you want to be like, but I don't want to be like anyone, I want to me. I want to be unique but the truth is, we all act and think the same .We are all built the same. It's like asking two identical computer models to perform completely different things. It just doesn't happen. So h...

26 May 2015, 12:39 AM
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Day 8- 25/05/2015

Sorry about yesterday, I just didn't really find the time to write and felt too tired to do so as well. So this weekend has been quite productive in an unplanned sort of way. Yesterday (Saturday) I started revision at 9:00 am and finished at 4, besides a few breaks I actually revised quite well. After all this, it was the eurovision song contest. I stayed up till about 12:00 watching it so obviously I was exhausted. Even though I am writing at 1 in the morning right now! So today was also pro...

25 May 2015, 01:23 AM
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Day 6

Do you ever feel like you could just disappear and no one would ever know? As crazy as this may sound,taking my own life often tempts me. As a disclaimer, I would like to reassure you that I'd never do something like that. I just wish I could see how people who react if I died. How many people would turn up to my funeral? How many people would care about the life I had. I was going to write about my overall life ambition but it's quite late so I'll save that for antoher day. As a side not, ...

22 May 2015, 11:54 PM
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Day 5 - Moving on

Although this doesn't happen as regularly as once before, I suddenly feel scared of change. Leaving high school, moving on to a bigger chapter of my life - it scares me! The psychological side to me is saying it stems from when I was young. All the change I knew back then was bad. It always revolved around fights and death. There was never a pure happy change. I think I'm just scared of my life being worse. As I'm 16, I've started looking for jobs around my local area. And I've realised that...

21 May 2015, 10:29 PM
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Day 4

To be honest with you, I don't have a clue what to write so just roll with it. I feel really ill at the moment from "that time of the month". My lower back really hurts a long with my head, thighs and of course stomach. I know I could take medicine to take away the pain but I'm fed up of taking away the pain. I used to harm myself as a way of masking the pain, relieving it if only for an hour or two. I don't want to fall into that trap anymore. It was a dangerous trap that I refuse to fall i...

20 May 2015, 11:09 PM
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Day 3 - Friends

I've learnt today the friends, true friends, are there for you no matter what. It's taken me the whole 5 years to find where my true friendships lie. I feel that there are 4 types of friendships that have presented themselves to me. 1) You're best friends. These are the people who you can't fall out with for more than a second, someone who sees both your good/bad side and still decides to stay. Someone who knows how you're feeling and you feel you can tell anything too. 2) The fake friends. T...

19 May 2015, 08:53 PM
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Day 2

A moment of euphoria has sent me crashing and burning to Earth. The day started off as any other, I woke up hating life, went to school hating life and sat in class hating life. After 4 hours of maths class and friendships on thin ice, I'd had enough. I have a normal life, it's just that life in year 11 means that I'm so much more depressed than before. There's just constant coursework! And if it's not coursework then it's an exam, if not an exam then revision, if not revision then there's ex...

18 May 2015, 09:36 PM
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Day 1

Do you ever question why we're here? And I don't mean why you may be sat on your chair or bed, I mean why we're physically here. In an infinite world with infinite universes and infinite opportunities, why are we here right this second? Has fate bought us here in a way nothing else could? Hi by the way, welcome to 16 year old me. I'm the girl who feels the need to question every little thing after nearly drowning in the swamp of exam stress. I'm not going to lie to you, high school has reall...

18 May 2015, 12:20 AM
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