THE FEELS

I’ve divorced myself from feeling, yet my body betrays me; Emotion is what I heard it’s called Something easily said then done. But I guess I’ll try my hardest . observe and keep quiet I miss my best friend. Things have changed people have changed and I need to change.

31 August 2014, 12:11 AM
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Possibilities

Im attached? infatuated? what am i with you ben? i don't but i know its something way stronger then i've had with the past guys. just like suspected josh was a drive by fling. i don't even miss him which is weird since i was kinda obsessed. i knew with him it'd be the same routine i was with alex... i'd be falling back into the routine where id try "fixing" someone with pure unconditional love. But like always they end up dismiss it. so thats why i've closed my heart but with ben that lost...

01 June 2014, 02:17 AM
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I Break At The Bend

and yet with all these handsome strangers entering my life i still look over my shoulder to check if you'll be back, but with every shoulder glance all i see is darkness and i stay and wallow in the pain and hurt i still hold on too. i've come far but not that far. i've learned to forgive myself for letting you go and for making mistakes, but one thing i have not learned to do is to stop loving you. never really learned after freshman year ... you gravitated to me once and i pray you'll grav...

25 May 2014, 06:49 PM
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Married Life...

a song i can listen to over and over again and cry. the song that made our bond so much more stronger then i could ever imagine. this movie summed UP our lives together in the future. till the part where everything wasn't always butterflies and rainbows. i go through weeks of not noticing that you aren't in my life anymore. then something as simple as shuffling my ipod and it landing on this song all those memories of us planning to get married have 3 kids name one of them jack and how we'd l...

03 May 2014, 11:22 PM
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MEN

i don't understand why you guys want us girls to be straight up front when you yourselves are unable to that way with us. i swear the minute i'am trying to find a guy to start a relationship all guys wanna do is just fuck -__- ugh i swear i should just date girls instead...

21 April 2014, 06:29 AM
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I Watch Your Life Play Out In Pictures From Afar.

11 April 2014, 01:48 AM
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Josh.. ( March 13 2014)

You make me want a relationship. Your smile, your laugh. Gahh I just can’t. I can see myself have a future with you, which feels kind of scary assuming we become nothing more then friends. But you MAKE ME FEEL. I literally didn’t even know what to talk about. I just wanted to stare at you ahaha. But like all guys I can’t do this to myself I know somehow you will get bored or find someone better so I should just keep my distance. Cause I don’t want to end up left to hang an dry like I was las...

16 March 2014, 11:07 PM
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A Kiss Is Just A Kiss

I grow weary, when I kiss some stranger im attracted to. For its just a kiss with out meaning. I find them boring. No spark no flame. Guy after guy date after date. And although 3 have declared they have fallen in love with me. I can not reply cause im empty inside. I dont long for you alex anymore u made that clear and im okay with that but you made it impossible for me to feel cause the last time I truly enjoyed a kiss was when I was with you. I hope someone out there will make me feel th...

09 March 2014, 12:46 AM
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Time...

i spoke to you you said hi i said why and you didn't bother to reply i poured my feelings to you like i've always had still no reply... still learning to be without you just started to crawl . words can't begin to explain what you still mean to me, but if mean nothing to you anymore all i can say is im sorry. you're the one that i love and i'm saying goodbye.

06 February 2014, 04:58 AM
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Follow Me On Instagram

@echeverriajess

20 January 2014, 03:57 AM
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Alex......Asher

why can't i just forget about you once and for all. why can't i just turn away and pretend like nothing happen. thats what you're doing anyway... deleted me from your life. now i'am truly somebody that you use to know. but in the same way i wonder what you do and if there is someone else already, the only person that comes to mind is Asher. the guy i say good morning and goodnight too, the guy that makes silly faces on snapchat with me, the guy that motivates me to be a better me, to reach fo...

17 January 2014, 05:49 AM
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Asher.

you have been in my life less then a week and i feel like i'm falling head or heels in like with you. you are an amazing person inside and you make me smile like crazy. you're positive vibes just gush towards anyone thats near. we have amazing phone calls at night and we just click. but somewhere in my mind i feel like you are too good for me, and that you dont even like me the way i like you. so i guess i have to wait. only time can tell if we were meant to be more then friends. (i hope you...

11 January 2014, 07:56 AM
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Expose Yourself To Your Deepest Fear; After That, Fear Has No Power - Jim Morrison

08 January 2014, 03:31 AM
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Fresh Start?

So third day into this new year and it's looking pretty good so far. i started kinda sorta talking to this one kind fellow. although i know deep inside im still not ready to move on i've grown quite fond of him. he makes me smile all the time with his wacky ways. for once (and im am surprised) for once im not seeing myself comparing him to alex, like i did with the others. i just wish i knew what he was thinking of right now. but i know i have to move on. for my sake. wishing doesn't change ...

04 January 2014, 06:19 AM
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2014

i feel weird.

03 January 2014, 02:12 AM
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Back To Page One

As I sit here in the middle of family crowd dancing their night away, I ponder on how effective words can be, and how much meaning a simple word like yes can mean. I say yes to change , I say yes to self love, I say yes to self forgiveness, I say yes to me. Change doesn't just happen, you make it happen. 2014 will be the year I accomplish all my inner ambitions. 2014 will be my year.

01 January 2014, 07:04 AM
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01 January 2014, 01:18 AM
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If Only

Dear Mr. & Mrs. Echeverria, Calles, Close Friends Jessica Echeverria has had Alex Gonzalez erased from her memory. Please never mention their relationship to her again.

29 December 2013, 06:26 PM
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Dec 27 2013

Happy Birthday Alex. Suppose that you miss me and that you care. I wish you an amazing birthday cause you made it clear im no longer important enough to even say happy birthday. Its my last year I intend to salvage whatevers left of us. Can't do it anymore. Goodbye.

27 December 2013, 05:18 PM
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I...

have a whole playlist of songs that remind me of you. I'm not able to bring myself to delete them cause i can never delete you from my life. even though sometimes i want to...

27 December 2013, 06:57 AM
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