Rendered Winter

Leaves at the bottom of a lake, Frozen ten feet under, Potential life not to wake, Until the somber seasons over. Wouldn't it be nice to see the sun? When the frost makes it hard to breathe? When the snow was so cold it stung? When you longed the green on those rotten trees? The ice so clear to see your face, So fragile to the touch, Yet without a single trace, Of the bond that cannot be such. Wouldn't it be nice to hold your hand? When my fingers are completely numb? When the wind makes i...

04 December 2016, 04:11 AM
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I Don't.

I don't want to hurt you because that's what I was built to do Take eyes of innocence and crack them straight through. I don't want to take the time from you because it's my nature. I a fatal hurricane and you my storm chaser. My shrapnel filled heart can only love so much. Before it bleeds and kills everything near touch. I don't want to I don't want to fire on you because it's what I'm armed to do. Take a bullet to the brain for me and you. I don't want to drown you because of my su...

04 December 2016, 04:10 AM
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10.9

Ten times under. Nines times lost. Last chance wonder, Is it worth the cost? 10.9 from you. 10.9 from me. 10.9 from view. 10.9 that'll never be. .25 you give me. I'll give you 1.0. I'll give you the key. While you shut the door. You said you need me. Where are you now? Don't regret me. Because you, You let me down.

18 July 2015, 07:17 PM
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At 3 A.M.

At 3 A.M. When the shadows of darkness wave over me, When my tears fall for no one to see, There I shiver and condemn, All in vain, all for them. For the fears that hid behind my eyes, For the heightened paranoias that drugged my cries, Your broken heart of precious gem, And a haunted "Why couldn't you just give into him?" Because innocence is plagued by pain. Because love in half-heartedness stays vain. To put a heart together root by root stem by stem, In the midst of the night, At 3 A.M. ...

19 December 2014, 04:38 AM
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Retreating waves in a full moon Veiled clouds of dew Fleeting star afternoon All away from you. Shuddered in neutral tones Watered snow in the sea Five feet under in dusty bones All unable to save me. Aftermaths of sun-lit fires The bottom of the deep blue Sparks evaded in frayed wires All died for you. The clippings of flight Paled potential never free Dull blade fight All failed to fix me.

13 August 2014, 02:07 AM
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Depths

The phantoms of you drag me down to the ocean floor Into the graves of ships lost at sea. Where the desires can always implore Where tranquility can eternally be. In such darkness rays of light go haywire Waking the souls of creatures lost long ago Where the prayers of men are always met by a fatal choir Where a fleeting love surely woes.

20 July 2014, 07:24 AM
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You Are.

In the depths of the night the silence surrounds me. In the profound caves of my mind the lamentations all agree. You are the morning break of light through my windows. You are thousands of reveries through my exhausted billows. Simple desires flaming all the monsters of the sea. A guardian lifting the storms all off of me. In the dawning of the hours insights come with the thought of you. In the twilight of the crashing vacillations you brightly subdue. You are the refuge of the souls misund...

01 May 2014, 02:59 AM
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You are the shadows of lost dreams in a broken night. You are the drowning pool of black water in the deepest crevice. A once eternal fondness swifted away with the oceans of ambiguity. The rays of sun we once pondered and mirages to run now desiccated. Maybe its better now we don't know where we want to crawl up and flee. But the hours ceded to days to weeks to months of distance and deception. The greens have fogged to grey and the humid is in our hearts like a beach perched in a sky. Float...

19 April 2014, 05:49 AM
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To Let

A punch in the stomach, you come out of the dark, so silent, so hushed, a certain death to fall apart. To let the birds fly without fear, to let your breath go and a subtle lonesome tear. For once you can bid goodbye to solidarity, so long lonesome greet upon pure raging clarity. To fall into the arms of of your darkest demons, to surrender yourself despite the blaring beacons. Touching the dark pools of your forbidden, diving into the seas of all you've hidden. To let go of the past and the ...

28 March 2014, 03:42 AM
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A sitting soul on the oceans steps, wondering if you are significant despite the vastness. Do you really matter when every wave is better than anything you could ever amount to? Is it worth the effort to try when overpowered? A drowning soldier in the depths, pulled down by the very vessel meant to keep you alive. A floating body on the surface, apparent but unnoticed in such space. The worlds too big to be special, to be that one saving drop of water that saves the ocean. Maybe that's the e...

16 March 2014, 04:37 AM
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I know I'm not as alone as I thought I was. I never really quite understood that everyone battled a similar battle: to love. And yes, it hurts, but I can't give up. Nine months or not the wait will be a journey, to find what I want, to find what I need, what I can handle. It will test my faiths, my passions, my trusts and strengths but nevertheless, it will test me. Patience has always been my virtue, but is it worth putting your life on hold? I pray that in these 9 months everything I'm scar...

13 March 2014, 10:08 PM
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June 13th to Now.

Lingering arm on a cliff, all those tales, nothing but plastic bliss. Care beyond words you said, shiver colder, our connection dead. Our blood reciprocated, on your palm and mine, shedding and inundated. It takes two I know, like a painting, shattered Vincent Van Gogh. Singing aimlessly into air, hymn of sorrow, remaining just a stranger's stare. Months of trusted affair, evaporated with distance, and you, you don't care.

11 March 2014, 09:40 PM
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I love you; I love you, and all of your pieces.

09 March 2014, 05:32 PM
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Burst

A simple walk on a trail of darkness, an unexpected assault on my secrets. You had no right to take it from me, my subtle innocence under the stars. It was not soft and beautiful as his, it felt like a piercing needle filled with iodine. There was no sweet release in its collide, nothing but panic was ensued. A crumbled sputter of "its okay" but nothing other than a crying soul inside. It felt so wrong to do whats right, but it feels so right to do whats wrong. The only one, my dark night ris...

08 March 2014, 08:53 PM
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It feels so scary to miss you, and know I can never have you.

04 March 2014, 01:02 AM
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There.

Maybe its in an field far away, where children laugh, run, and play. Where the barren has not gone up in human flames, where there are no black clouds of pollution shame. Maybe where linens fly in place, where trees aren't forests but stars in space. Where roads aren't guides to an endless travel, where weeds aren't weeds but precious gravel. Maybe in a land of potential prosper, where hills are valley's only foster. Where the sky has no start and end, where God's hand touches and his holy ...

02 March 2014, 06:07 PM
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In You and I.

In all my weakness I find strength in you. Last strings of an orchestra pulled and illuminated. Silver river gleam reciprocated, anticipated, so beautifully intoxicated. In you and I. In my looming darkness I look up to you. Traveling wind road stone constant and and steadfast. Gold willow branches show deliverance, perseverance, resilience. In you and I. In all our years passed I promise to be a friend to you. Copper amber rays seem to dance in your eyes. Beneath the surface our spirit cri...

27 February 2014, 06:27 PM
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February

Sweet release and all is gone, so much poison retrieved with your lips. Fight is over, knight gives way, put down your swords, surrender to the fight. Breathe in exoneration, allow trembled hands to be held, nurtured. No more circles there is no where left to hide, cave into the oceans depths. No drowning, no breathing all there is, is stillness, floating, capturing. Fall into the beautiful to all the serenity, and let it happen, let yourself feel the same.

25 February 2014, 04:29 AM
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February 22,2014

Step, one unto a path heightens everything. Locked eyes in a split second, nervous beating in the next. Fast breathing on your way, trying not to look. A trebling smile as you sit, and a soft and hurt "hey". Grin to grin returned but faked in every way. A needed "How are you?" and a superficial "okay". When nothing is, when you wish to scream, run, and hide. "I've been busy" is all we say. Eyes in every direction but set on each other in a chance. Longing, hating maybe, but its there. The te...

23 February 2014, 06:20 AM
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January

Exerted and exhausted in stranger's eyes, all for the comfort of feeling alive. Eluded and evaded from the wolf's azure windows, to warmth, to ignorance, to the vital stars flare. Shivering and suffering the brown owl flies, burnt to bone in cold air. Scared and silent instinct paths it takes, to verdant, to winter fall, to care. Inhaled and impaled farther and father craved, shot to ground and stumble crawled. Blackened and broken bloodstream oozes, with poison, with venom, with ash. Suppli...

18 February 2014, 04:00 AM
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