October 14 2014, Tuesday

I'm a failure. I will never amount to anything. I will never be a doctor, and that's just a fantasy. I will fail at everything I put my mind to. I can't even get a paper in without fucking it up. How could I ever save somebody's life? I don't know why I ever thought I could do this, I knew it was stupid. I can't believe I ever thought I was something special, something worth noticing. I'm just a screw up and that's all I'll ever be. I've given up, and the only reason I'm still submitti...

14 October 2014, 06:22 PM
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October 13 2014, Monday

Nobody understands me. I mean, literally NO ONE understands me. I'm constantly lying to people about myself, my life, my struggles. Because I'm afraid. I'm afraid to let people in. I don't really know why, and the worst punch in the gut is when my History teacher said that our value is in ourselves, and not in the deeds which we do. I mean, I just want someone to get me. To see all my struggles, and all my accomplishments and not judge me, or think "Wow what a freak" or even not symp...

13 October 2014, 06:26 PM
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October 13th 2014, Monday

When people ask me why I'm depressed, I usually say that I'm not; But I'm sick and tired of lying. I feel like I'm drowning, and...it's like I don't know how to swim. It's all because of her, that woman. I feel like I don't even know who she's become now, and even more, I feel like I don't even know who I've become. Maybe I'm thinking about it too much, everyone tells me that I do that. But the honest truth is, I wish I was born into a different family. Every little detail of my life is m...

13 October 2014, 06:14 PM
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