ANOTHER DAY, ANOTHER PROBLEM

I don't want to talk about it. leave me alone. I hate this, an all time low

01 November 2013, 08:11 AM
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When I feel like everything's going okay, something somehow always messes up. I'm never moving forward, it's a constant struggle. One step forwards, two steps back. Name of the game. Life. Went doctors, now got health problems, referred to another place because they think I'm depressed. I'm not. It's just a tough time that feels like it's never ending. That's what I tell myself anyways. Don't think I believe it though. It's gone on way too long. It's not normal to feel like this. I've never...

13 October 2013, 11:26 AM
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MEEEZ15

Thank you. It's nice to know somebody cares. I originally made this as a way to release my thoughts and feelings. Never expected anyone to actually read. But thank you for your words.

02 October 2013, 11:50 PM
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Need to talk to sis. I don't want to. F expects me to say yes. she says she there's no reason for her to say no. What's wrong with her?!!

29 September 2013, 08:30 AM
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PRESSURE

29 September 2013, 08:29 AM
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I feel like screaming! I wanna get out of here. I don't want to be me. I fucking hate myself. I have nobody. Everyone has fucked off. I'm on my own.. Fuck everything.

29 September 2013, 08:29 AM
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THE FIRST CUT

01 September 2013, 11:45 PM
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it doesn't work anymore. I punch as hard as I can. Nothing. I hit myself with a spanner. Some relief. I don't this anymore. i want game over.

24 August 2013, 09:20 PM
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How did my life get like this?

27 July 2013, 11:38 AM
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I feel nothing. Everything hurts a million times more

27 July 2013, 11:30 AM
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death.

So me and mum were chilling. She was telling me about my sister that was born still. We were discussing where her grave was and that no body had been to visit it ever. I want to see it so much. I've spent the last few hours looking for it, I thought I had found her but the record shows the baby was delivered at North Middlesex hospital, and mum says it was defo Homerton. It could be a mistake or totally the wrong child. She had a name. A nice one. Mum said she was beautiful with jet black ha...

22 June 2013, 09:58 PM
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I don't get it. She think's I'm willing to let go. She thinks this is easy for me. She thinks that I don't care. Roll on the tears. Time and time and time again I have tried to prove to her how much she means to me. I crave her. It's hurting me so much everytime she talks about not being with mr. And she thinks that I have let her go "so many times". Yesterday she told me she wanted to see me. Missed me. Talked about marriage. and now she wants nothing to do with me. I can't help it, I f...

22 June 2013, 11:00 AM
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On the phone...

"I'm not gonna see you anymore... surprise" I hate me.

22 June 2013, 10:33 AM
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punch punch punch

The pain is getting worse. What's wrong with me? My fucked up life

22 June 2013, 10:24 AM
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she's planning on letting go... soon

22 June 2013, 10:23 AM
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I wanted to hurt myself today.

I wanted to crash the car. The tears don't stop. Why the hell did I decide to go past and look at her window!

19 May 2013, 10:30 PM
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I remember our last everything

This is torture. and now I have a decision to make

21 April 2013, 03:48 PM
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my life is falling apart

I need to release all my thoughts and feelings. But I have no one. I can't even be bothered to do this. I'm talking to myself.

21 April 2013, 03:36 PM
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Where have I been?

I feel cold, numb inside. I'm not happy. I'll give you a update from saturday onwards when I feel like the words are ready to come out. hurt, upset, angry, confused, sad

16 April 2013, 10:14 PM
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TUESDAY 10th APRIL / WEDNESDAY MORNING

So yesterday morning (Tuesday) I had a massive breakdown. I couldn't stop crying. I hated every little part of me and had two panic attacks, one after the other. The weight on my chest was pulling me down, and I couldn't hold it in anymore. It hit me so hard on what I had thrown away. Her words, "I might not be around". They were deeper than they looked. i might not be around meaning, you may never see me again. I cried and I cried. I sent her a really long message, with blurry vision coz of...

11 April 2013, 05:07 PM
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