So I date complete and total fucking ASSHOLES

So I'm not a country girl because I have upset him and made the mistake of hurting him. Oh, I'm sorry darlin. But your vision of a "country girl" is flawed, and you'll never find it because I'm just liked any other person. I make mistakes. Sorry to disappoint you. Oh wait. No I'm not. FUCK YOU. It's so funny you think what you say actually matters.

07 May 2014, 02:38 AM
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He's broken my heart for the last time.

I decided I had enough and left. It took a lot.. But I knew it was for the best... He basically made me feel like a piece of shit in return... I actually have someone who wouldn't throw me away multiple times now... He won't hurt me like he did. I'm having trouble trusting anyone, but he's makin it easy to trust again. It's amazing how one person can change you so much.. I know I'm doing the right thing.

19 March 2014, 11:45 PM
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I feel alone..

I mean, me and him aren't together so we're not talking as often as we did... He was the only person I'd really talk to so it's just.. It makes me realize how little of a social life I have... It's quite sad.. I sit here on Facebook and Tumblr and check my phone even though I know I have no messages or texts...

07 March 2014, 11:36 PM
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Well, he has once again left me. Admittedly I would take him back with no hesitation. He says he will come back, he just doesn't feel like he can do the whole "long relationship" thing. Well if you really loved me enough you should be able to.... Just FUCK. Everyone says to move on and I want to but I can't.! I'm stuck.! I can't fucking leave the love of my life.! I've never felt like this before, I've never loved so much... And then this has to fucking happen. GODDAMMIT. I'm fuckin TIRED of...

07 March 2014, 12:22 AM
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The past

Sometimes I wonder why I even stayed with my last ex.. I mean, we constantly fought, he even admitted I wasn't his "perfect girl" by posting a picture of some gorgeous metal music model and said it was his dream girl. Why did I put up with that, why did I even try to make it work when it just all hurt me in the end and left me with these terrible memories.

30 January 2014, 11:00 PM
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Recently...

Well we broke up (again) so he could have a break from everything... Saturday night we got into the biggest argument and I put my phone away for the night and woke up debating on whether I had finally had enough... I didn't, and apologized multiple times after reading the heart breaking sorrow in his messages. We are not back together yet, but we will be. Once we are together, there will be no more breaks or break ups. I will no longer let him control my heart. I love him, and this is his la...

29 January 2014, 09:18 PM
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I thought I was okay...

Every time I feel everything is finally okay, it all just goes to Hell... Every single bit of work I had done, everything that finally got worked out, all that work just goes to shit... I just want to be happy and not worry anymore... Is that so much to ask for..

14 January 2014, 08:47 PM
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I post a lot.. Now that I have followers on here, I'm scared of annoying y'all...

But, yeah.. For the longest I can remember, for as long as I've started making friends, I've been scared of not being good enough... When I got my first crush, I thought I wasn't good enough. So he never found out. Every person I've dated, every person I've befriended... I never thought I was good enough to know anybody.... But when you fall madly, deeply, in love with someone, this can become an issue... I'm just not good enough....

10 January 2014, 11:56 PM
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It's those kinds of things that scare me

I'm so scared something bad is going to happen.. I'm afraid he's going to leave me. I couldn't bare it if he did. I need him. I'm probably thinking too much.. again... But it just scares me. My worst fear is loosing him. Dean, I know you won't read this. My whole heart is your's no matter what happens. Please don't leave. Please stay... You're my entire world. I love you. I've never been so sure. For once I can actually imagine my future, and you're all I can see...

10 January 2014, 11:24 PM
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For once I'm not posting about my relationship

I just need to get this off my chest... I'm terrified. I know I'm probably just over thinking this and making myself worry over nothing but it's a scary thought... I mean, this could effect my entire plan for a family in a future... Who wouldn't be torn to pieces that they possibly couldn't have kids in the future. I don't want to go to the doctors and find out the worst is true. I hope when I go, I don't hear what I've been fearing for awhile now.

10 January 2014, 12:50 AM
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Dreams..

I had a dream last night.. A terrible dream... I dreamed that I saw my ex, the one who put me through so much pain. We hung out and just talked is all. But I walk up to my boyfriend with my best friend and he just leans over and kisses her. I completely break down right in front of them all. My boyfriend then picks me up and starts apologizing and tears are falling from his face. Then I wake up. I wake up almost hyperventilating and I start crying. I freak out and text my boyfriend telling h...

08 January 2014, 02:10 AM
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I know I seem confident...

Confident in how I'm doing in school, confident about my future.. In all actuality I just wanna fucking break down and fucking scream and cry... I'm terrified of failing in anything, because I'm afraid of the outcome.. I'm afraid of fucking up my entire future...

02 January 2014, 02:21 AM
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At 3:30 AM..

It's at this 3:30 time, that all the feelings in your heart pour out. He finally told me "I love you" once more, and I felt my world brighten. I've missed him.. He can feel himself getting better and I will finally have him back

11 December 2013, 09:00 AM
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There's That Pain Again

That pain in my chest. It's back. He refuses to tell me what happened.. What went wrong between Friday night and Saturday night. Was it something I did... Something I said. Please tell me so I can fix my mistakes...

10 December 2013, 09:39 PM
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Sweet addiction

Oh sweet addiction, take this pain and everything I feel. Even for just a bit, it’s such a wonderful bliss coming from my lips.

10 December 2013, 01:42 AM
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How could you say all of those things and then go through these unsure feelings again... You said you were in love with me, you said you wouldn't hurt me again. What do you think you're doing to me right now? I've never felt so sure about loving someone.

09 December 2013, 05:11 PM
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Sometimes I don't feel the need...

I don't feel the need to get up in the mornings, I don't feel the need to check my phone, I don't feel the need to worry about how I look, I don't feel the need to even leave the house... I don't feel the need to feel anything.. I don't want to know emotions. This is how living without him will be like.

09 December 2013, 04:40 PM
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I feel like if he were to leave again I would cry once and then be more angry than depressed.... I love him, with all my heart but I can't have this happen again..

07 December 2013, 03:30 AM
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God, she is so lucky...

If I had a truck I would ride my fucking ass up to Fayetteville and show my ass in front of every goddamn body. GOD I am so fucking TIRED of her fucking with him. She needs to back the fuck off and stop fucking flirting with him. I hope he wasn't thinking he could hide it. I'm not fucking dealing with this bullshit. Not this fucking time. He is my fucking boyfriend. You don't call him your fucking "teddy bear" or your fucking anything other than "friend" Fuck you, you fucking whore ass bitch.

07 December 2013, 02:50 AM
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It seems like the only time I use this is when things start going wrong in my mind... I keep over thinking and it's going to ruin everything.. I'm terrified he's going to leave. She's pulling these mind tricks on him trying to win him over again...

24 November 2013, 07:46 PM
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