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You say I'm a slut, a whore; that my mouth is a cock pit. Say that I'm a cheater, that I'm crazy and fucking wreckless. Truth is, I'm just trying to figure out who I am. How can you define me, when I'm still trying to find myself?

20 April 2013, 08:49 AM
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I can't believe I'm really going through with this. Hoping for the best. To the future--

20 January 2013, 02:48 PM
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Boy: Im sorry I was just so angry. Did I say anything mean? Me: I guess you cant consider it mean if it's true.

16 January 2013, 07:46 PM
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"Keep your distance. Some people can change you, and not in a good way"

16 January 2013, 03:10 PM
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Rereading IB's gift to me from a few months back. Playing cards. "52 reasons why I love you", 1 on every card. :) #43 This feels real Yes. This definitely feels real

06 January 2013, 11:38 AM
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This is the millionth time I've found you on the kitchen floor. Rhum stained your white dress, mascara by your cheeks and deep breathing almost as if you're hyperventilating. Crying again because... "I love him" you say while finding enough strength to sit up. Your head hits the pavement a little bit, trying to convince me and yourself that he loves you too. Again because... He isn't what you need him to be, and you're scared he will never love you the way you love him. You let him in, ...

05 January 2013, 07:14 PM
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when you let go of the wrong things, the right things fall into place

05 January 2013, 05:16 PM
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Where to start? So I guess I wanna say thanks for everything you taught me and showed me. I learned a lot while we had what we did. Now, I think I’m finally growing up and putting everything behind me. It’s hard to forget what we had because for some reason you’re always there. You always randomly show up and it’s hard to pretend that I didn’t have feelings for you before. The thing is, you had a girlfriend and you still do. I try so hard to be just a friend to you but you aren’t making it an...

09 December 2012, 07:14 AM
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Dear You, We met while you had a girlfriend. You fell in love with me, and I fell hard for you. That was the first time I realized that timing is everything; that sometimes two people can have so much chemistry, but things just don’t fall into place for them: reality I call it. You told me you chose me over her, but you didn’t. I remember looking at prom dresses, hoping somehow you would invite me because you ‘chose’ me. The day of your prom, I remember staring into space wondering why I wa...

09 December 2012, 07:12 AM
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Letters

Why?Because sometimes I don’t have enough strength to tell you all these things in person. Sometimes it takes me awhile for things to get to me; a delayed reaction to everything. Here I am, writing letters to the people I love

09 December 2012, 07:11 AM
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It was just so perfect, like an indie film scene where the two lovers just stare into each others eyes. I feel stupid for weighing them out when the answer was so clear. He was always the one and now, he's mine.

09 December 2012, 07:08 AM
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Birthday's coming up and I don't feel the least bit wiser... feels like every year I have a harder time trying to figure out who I am

07 December 2012, 03:41 PM
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I find myself so confused. Why can't he just go away? stop talking to me and just disappear. I cant keep this going anymore. He hurt me so much, and every other day I bump into him and force a fake smile. I should hate him, but it's so hard to hate the people you used to love

07 December 2012, 03:40 PM
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Decisions

I know I need time alone, to figure myself out but I dont know if i can let go of him, of something so genuinely good. Im scared that I might lose a chance to get him back if I do. I love him but I need to love me too

01 December 2012, 06:07 PM
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It was just time to really let go. These were two people who I fell in love with, and who I gave parts of myself to. They hurt me, and I can never be the same person I was before them. That's okay though, I've accepted that. I decided to delete them both on facebook. I realized that they dont deserve to be a part of my future. That yes, I am thankful because they taught me so much,but their time in my life is finally at an end. I cant keep forcing to hold on to them because they want to ...

18 October 2012, 05:36 PM
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These past few months have been full of change. Change is inevitable, and it brings with it a few realizations as well. 1. Some people just dont deserve to be with you after the pain and confusion theyve brought upon you. 2. Love is meant to be easy, not that complicated shit movies make it out to be. 3. There are just these perfect moments you wish you could relive over and over and over again.(see previous post) 4. You never really stop loving the people in your past, you choose to move on ...

01 October 2012, 06:10 PM
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We were on his bed, listening to love songs, tired from dancing to 80's hits and running around the room. He says he wants to die before his parents do, because he doesn't think he can take having them leave first. I tell him that his mindset will change when he has a family.You can't just leave the family you created behind. He says he thinks he's selfish, because he'd rather everyone else be sad that he's gone, than everyone around him dead and him having to be left with all this pain. We h...

23 September 2012, 04:56 AM
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A part of me hates you, a big part. You made me see a part of you nobody else has, you told me you loved me only to fucking leave me hanging. Stop fucking with my emotions, Im tired of you. Im tired. As for you, Im happy we're friends. I actually miss my best friend. Sad to look back and think if you didnt have such a huge ego we could've worked things out. Ive accepted though that this is what's best, time to grow on our own. Ill always have a soft spot for you, always gonna be here for yo...

03 September 2012, 06:16 PM
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wow someone who's just as weird as me! We talked about how most same school couples fight. Me: Glad we're on opposite ends of Manila! IB: Yeah but I bet it'd be fun to go to school w ya, it'd be fun to see you everyday :) Me: True, but at least now when I dont see you, I get to miss you IB: A bit too much if you ask me, like now. Missing you like fuck. So excited to see ya tomorrow!! I just wanna squish this kid and keep him in my pocket

03 September 2012, 06:14 PM
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3 days in a week and you aren't sick of me still?

Thursday Afternoon: He visited me in school, had lunch with my friends and I and played rockband after Friday Night: We had dinner at Larry's with JS and AF. Twas a good couple dinner! We talked about random things, laughed about weird ones. We ended up drinking at the penthouse of AF's condo. Beautiful view, wine in four glasses, playing my favorite game: 20 questions. JS asked him what he liked the most about me, he said eyes. He said they had a way of him feeling me through them, piercing ...

02 September 2012, 06:12 AM
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