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Update -I will not break

Its been awhile since I last posted but here is an update. I felt bad for keeping my roommate in the middle so I went and I text him. I laid out all my cards, spilled all my feeling into the text I told him how I really felt. After sending it, I had the biggest knot in my stomach. I even began to mentally prepare myself for every possible response. But the response that was given defiantly wasn't the response I was prepared for. Completely took me by surprise, my jaw literally dropped the fur...

06 March 2015, 07:23 AM
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That feeling

You know that feeling in the pit of your stomach after sending a risky text, but its one of those texts you have to send, well yea ive got that feeling right now. I hope things work out.

29 January 2015, 07:41 AM
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Day Three

Well two going on three days have past and still no word. I gave him an extra day because I thought maybe he was busy, but still no word. I talked to jordanna and apperently she hasnt really gotten to relay the message. So im going to give one last attempt at trying to be his friend for jordanna sake and if still nothing after this this, at least I gave my one final attempt. That way in the end I can say it wasn't me this time. It was all him. I don't fully know what or how I am going to talk...

29 January 2015, 06:31 AM
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I tried and tried but I broke and stopped trying. Its your turn if you truly want to stay friends.

27 January 2015, 07:38 AM
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27 January 2015, 07:36 AM
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What to do next?

Things got bad and you saw me at my worst. I broke and you couldn't handle it. We never talk to me unless you're asking what's for dinner. We never hang out unless jordanna is there. If not there you avoid me like the plague or something. I tried and tried so hard to be your friend, but it became the point that it became more a job than anything. I felt like I was walking on egg shells around you. I felt like if I said the wrong thing you'd take it as if I still thought of you in that way. Tr...

27 January 2015, 07:35 AM
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Lies

The world is an ugly place, full of lies, thieves and fakers. I feel like im surrounded. Im alone. Im the biggest lie of all. I lie to myself thinking everything is ok. But its not. In my mind i thought we were friends but were not its all pretend. Nothing hurts worse to know that they lie and pretend to be your friend. It hurts far worse than rejection. I was ok with rejection it happens but to find out they dont want to be your friend and know matter what you do you still get that feeling i...

30 December 2014, 04:20 AM
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Rough Times

Its been a long time since ive posted mainly because i have been lost. I havent had much to say, keeping everything inside and not putting them here. thinking maybe they'd go away on there own. I used new guy made thoughts on how with him i could be normal and nothing that was going on in my life existed. but like all fairytales they end and so did he. but thats for next post. Long story short i did the one thing in life i promised myself id never do and that was take an iteam of mine and wal...

30 December 2014, 04:19 AM
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Pain Killers = Weird Ass Dreams

well where to begin... I guess ill start by saying i was back in high school. Not me personally back in high school I was still college bound but for some reason I was at my high school in the gym with everyone else. I was my old classmates and the current classmates of my high school. The gym was packed but the weird thing was the other half of the gym was blocked off by some type of wall. So everyone either was crammed on the bleachers or on the little bit of floor we did have. There was a...

30 December 2014, 04:18 AM
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First Few Pages

I did finish the first few pages. At first i had absolutely had no idea where to start. The whole time i kept thinking was what did i get myself into? im not artistic or creative. I kept at it though. They dont seem like much but hopefully as i go on through each page ill get better. so here are the first few pages of the wreck this journal and my progress.

08 April 2014, 04:34 AM
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Wreck this Journal

so i decided im going to update as i make my wreck this journal and just kinda show my progress. ive only recently started so i havent done much to it. but i figured i can post or if anyone has comments or suggestions feel free.

08 April 2014, 04:12 AM
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A little something about me!

First of all this is my first time sharing anything. I was going to do something like this on youtube but decided against it because of how little i sound on camera. so why not type it all out. I dont know what ill update or type about but any suggestions are always welcome! I guess i'll start with a few things about me. Im a Leo, a freshman in college, i am the oldest of five. I play softball or fastpitch which ever you call it where you are. As well as im a big football fan, my whole family...

08 April 2014, 12:38 AM
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