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I received word that the man known as my father has remarried for a 3rd time, has hep c from his drug abuse and is in FL in poor health. He is losing his home. My aunts and uncles are trying to corral my siblings to partake in an intervention. I made my peace by offering what I could, but the outcome that they are hoping for is a bleak one that I have given up on 12 years ago.

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There are 5 of us. I noticed the pattern immediately. It started with me. I reached out to establish a relationship, if even for the sake of family and left heartbroken and a broken person. My sister Joann followed suit and on and on until the youngest Andrew just recently threw in the towel.

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I have spent years making poor choices and have gone through tumultuous times only to bounce back ever more resilient. He's 58 and looks 80. I have come to a place in life where I am comfortable with myself, but don't like myself. When I have my coping mechanisms in place, the past haunts me.

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My father is a drug addict and alcoholic. He was abusive in his younger days. Never sent child support and did anything. I struggled with myself growing up. Why did he hate me, what was wrong with me, what did I do to make him hate me. I have now in my adult life come to grips that it's his struggle that kept him away and not me. But that doesn't ease the pain.

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Growing up without a father was difficult, I resented my mother not knowing the facts. He was never in my life. When my mother passed I reached out in hopes of recovering that bond that most fathers have for their daughters. I tried numerous times with the same result of hitting a brick wall at 118 mph.

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Today I am solemn if you didn't guess.

I have two events pertaining Patriarchs of two families. My Father In Law is undergoing heart tests and I have word that my own biological father is struggling. It's funny, I've never thought of myself as having daddy issues, but I guess I do.

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Why I like old buildings and why I am like them

I have always been intrigued by architecture, but my love of buildings is a self reflection. Imagine what they looked like new, with families and love in them. Now they are a shell of their former glory and hollow. Kind of like me. I am something new and different, but changed.

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