And now a sympathy card for your friends, who still don't see why you don't like their would be spouses.
So all week I've fed him/her
and each time it eats only when I am a safe distance away. It answers to Kitty Kitty or Puss Puss. Yesterday it was waiting for me. It came to the bowl and nudged me to pet it. I let it sniff my hand and pet him/her. I named the cat Ezio after the AC character.
"As much as I don't like the idea,
of it why don't you take it some food. We can't bring it inside, because we don't know where he came from or if he's sick, but we can't let him starve out there." I agreed. It was 0 degrees out and I took it food. It was hesitant and ate only when I was a safe enough distance away.
Saturday, we noticed that
something was getting into our trash, we thought it was our dogs, but then we see this cat. Someone must have dropped it off on our property. (4 acres) He/she is living under our trailer. My husband tries to coax it out, catch it, and says to me..
We looked and there was nothing.
it was cold and freezing and thought that it must have been one of our neighbors cats passing through. She has like 6. All last week while drifting to sleep I could have sworn that I heard a baby cry. Each time nothing was there.
Speaking of good things
I have 2 cats and 2 dogs. All rescues. I've had my oldest cat for 10 years and my youngest for 5. My oldest dog is 9 and my youngest is 6. Last week while my husband and I were trying to sleep, we heard a noise outside and a cat meowing.
So here's what I am going to do
unless someone reminds me of it, I am going to place all of those plaguing thoughts and negative feelings into a box for later and try to think of things that make me happy. Like video games, kittens, puppy kisses, and babies.
I don't know how others
can be in a similar situation and still make ends meet. I know that I'm smart, I've followed all of the advice. We don't splurge on stupid stuff. Then why is things this bad?
So I'm sitting here and thinking..
people always say that others have it much worst. It's true you never know what others are going through. But my problems are mine to go through. I just get frustrated, because I don't like to fail or to feel like an idiot because I don't know how to fix something.
Ok enough ranting and
feeling sorry for myself. Although things are still not good, I do feel better now that I have let this all out. I'm just going to take a deep breath in and put my big girl panties on and try to get through the rest of the day.