Crush who?

I'm crushing on the shyest guy I've ever known till date. I don't even know why but I find it cute. He's so silly yet so intelligent. His friends have given up on making him try to understand my feelings for him but I haven't. I find it even more fun now. Although I plan so much but I do a little. So from now onwards I'll try to make it as spontaneous as possible. How do I get him out of his shell where he's been hiding?

23 June 2015, 02:09 PM
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Shy

Shy. He's way too shy. Looks like I'm the only one who can make this awkward situation better. The more I talk to him, the faster he'll get used to me. I'm more comfortable talking to him because now he knows I like him. He's a total mamma's boy and I like it. Please lord give me the strength to walk up and talk to him. I cannot be the silent lover. I missed this opportunity of sitting next to him. I'm always missing chances. I'm more and more drawn to him now. I will have to ask him straight...

21 June 2015, 01:03 PM
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update: i did it

Yeah I've confessed to him already. It didn't go the way I planned but that's alright. It never does actually. But he's sort of weirded out I guess. He might avoid me for a few days or more and that's okay too. I just want to be friends. I wanted to tell him more but I'm too much of a coward and he's extremely shy. How it happened? I told him in a go but he didn't understand a thing at first. So his friends had to explain him stuff. He thought it to be some sort of a prank. Oh well, how am I ...

19 June 2015, 04:04 PM
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Trouble.

Wtf is happening. I feel that something is not right. My friend is in deep trouble just because of me. I didn't want that! I don't want her parents and brother to scold her. Please lord make everything fine. It's not her fault. She was just helping me and nowhere involved in any of it. Her brother thinks she has a boyfriend and having a boyfriend where I live is like a sin. Ugh she was just trying to help and it landed herself in trouble. And now I'm not even able to inform the guy to stop te...

18 June 2015, 10:53 AM
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School.

Summer break is over already. Why. .

17 June 2015, 04:36 PM
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overthinking.

If you've read my previous notes then you'd probably have an idea what I'm talking about. I have a million questions going through my head right now. A I don't know how I am gonna sustain my confidence until Friday. But I have to. There's no other way around. I have to tell him. It's not like I'm gonna spoil anything. This is my chance. If I like him I have to tell him and get to know if he feels the same way or not. I cannot wait on forever just to realise later that he doesn't like me. If ...

16 June 2015, 05:35 PM
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Do or die.

I was so excited and nervous a day before about my confession, all ready to blurt out my feelings to him but what did I do? Absolutely fucking nothing! I'm such a coward! Why can't I do it? Perhaps I didn't because I was myself not really sure about doing it. But now I am. The moment I see him next I'm doing it. No matter if I start crying in front of him, look like a fool or any shade of awkward now cannot stop me. It's a do or die thingy now. And I'm not dying yet. I'm confesssing and that'...

15 June 2015, 03:52 PM
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Butterflies.

I'm so fucking nervous right now that I can feel them hormones exploding within me. Oh god. I'm all set, planned out everything, rehearsed the entire conversation thingy India my head like a thousand times. I hope it all works out. Fingers crossed. At this point of time I'm not really afraid of rejection but of the possibility that he already has a girlfriend. If this happens, I'd be tore into a million pieces. I don't think I'll be able to take that. I would mind if he says that he doesn't f...

15 June 2015, 05:09 AM
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Confession.

Had to write it down because I wad thinking about it so much that it's distracting. I have this huge "thing" for this guy. Call it a crush maybe and I have no idea what to do. He's on my mind like 24/7. Ugh. I'm never normal around him and my ears go all red trying to talk to him. I have this great urge to confess my liking for him but have no idea where to get that much confidence from. I'm such a coward. I never felt like I lacked confidence like this time. My friend says that I should talk...

14 June 2015, 01:27 PM
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Dreams.

I dream too much. So much that it's unhealthy for me. Sometimes I feel that this life is too short too even complete my bucketlsist which upsets me a lot. But at the moment, I have my eyes fixed on the fish. I want to get into an IIT. Probably at Kanpur. And well also, find love in the meantime ;) .

13 June 2015, 05:06 PM
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3:45pm After having the dullest morning and expecting a mood lift in the evening, I'm sitting here all alone. I mean there are people here but none I can talk to. My one friend already informed about her absence so i was completely counting on to this other friend who has totally betrayed me. And what's worse is 'he' has also not come yet and I have zero hope that he will even. I feel so dull and spiritless right now. I wanted to see him badly and he isn't here. He said he would come but di...

08 June 2015, 03:32 PM
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Not a family anymore?

On the outside it looks a lead a simple life with not much worries but I have to deal with a lot, just like every other person. If we weren't here in India, I bet my parents would have parted ways a long time back. Actually they've never loved each other. Not sure about mum because she always gives up to him no matter how wrong she is. I've always seen her support him. But he doesn't even respect her. I'm afraid to marry if this is what married life looks like. No. He does nothing. By nothing...

07 June 2015, 05:05 PM
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him...

Ii going to try again. So he's stuck in my head like the lyrics to the latest Taylor swift song. I want to talk to him but yet I cannot. I guess I don't have enough courage and I don't want to end up all flushed in front of him. He's so calm but yet so intimidating. It looks like he has no care in this world. He is so carefree but yet he cares a lot. He makes seem everything so effort when he actually puts a lot of hard work. He inspires me to keep trying. He eventually wins everytime. We do...

03 June 2015, 07:01 PM
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Him.

I wrote an entire fucking page trying to explain my situation and I accidentally logged out like how the fuvk can it happen I am already stressed no not stressed but overthinking and then my thoughts get deleted like its the worst thing ever I never wrote so beautifully ugh

03 June 2015, 06:56 PM
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Goals

Having enough money to keep with food in my tummy (or maybe more, it wouldn't harm) Travel around the world and exploring every nook and corner. Knowing every bit of it. Understanding life, love and happiness. Success and achievements. A life worthy. Completing each and every single wish in my bucket list from writing a book to getting a tattoo. Life I not about how good you did it but how you did and the fact that you did it. Not stepping back. Not being regretful. Enjoying. No worries. Sens...

19 April 2015, 04:33 PM
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Habit

I know I don't write here very often. It's more like just once or twice in a whole month and sometimes even a month or two passes by without even a mention here. My life has become a lot busier this year- all the burden of the studies along with the fact that it's just this year. It's all and the only time I have to make it or break it. I'm wondering if I should make a handwritten journal. No actually I do have one which I started back in around June 2012 . But it's really untidy with a lot ...

19 April 2015, 04:27 PM
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Action

Writing a story on wattpad has always been one of the few things that tops my bucket list. So I made this plot recently. It's a JaDine fan-fiction. I don't know how to write but I want to write. Something is always better than nothing. So I've finally decided to write it and cringe later while reading it than not write and forever wondering why I didn't. So all the best to me. Lets give it a try.

13 March 2015, 03:50 PM
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A thousand years

Is it only me or the song gives chills to you as well?

11 March 2015, 04:11 PM
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DAMN I JUST FOUND A BOY ON INSTAGRAM WHO DRAWS AND IS SO HOT OMG

But I bet he has a girlfriend. *sighs* I wish I could get to know more about him.

10 March 2015, 04:50 PM
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Let's take a look at my bucketlist

1. I want to see the see. Yes I've never seen the sea or the beach. If I was to choose between the mountains and the sea, I'd choose the sea always. 2. Travel to the Philippines and learn their language, Tagalog. Thanks to the catfish girl, now I'm addicted to their country. It's so beautiful plus I'm always watching their romcom movies. JaDine Forever <3 3. Meet a guy who is just like me. Can draw. Loves watching foreign movies. Must love kpop. Should be cute. But most importantly o e whom ...

10 March 2015, 04:04 PM
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