ahhhh

the hardest thing to learn is how to be happy by yourself. i need people. i crave people. i hate people. and i rely on them for my happiness and i always always wind up getting crushed. i don't know how to find my own happiness.

13 October 2014, 05:01 AM
l
7 loves: rhonadam,HeartRhythms,lifeinfocus , ...
3 comments: rhonadam,HeartRhythms,abody.syria.h

i care

i will always care about people i don't know. i've been told i have big heart and it's one of the few things i'll ever believe about myself. i will listen to you i'll try to help you i may not know how or what to say but i will always listen

11 October 2014, 06:27 AM
l
5 loves: elicaroz,rhonadam,asiyacharr , ...
2 comments: rhonadam,wonderaroundtilidie

i still have that feeling

and i'm hoping that everything is okay ahh

11 October 2014, 02:36 AM
l
1 love: asiyacharr
comment

FUCK THIS SHIT

//anger leaks out of face// this day got progressively shittier dammit. sometimes i cook and i'm not hungry so i don't want to eat but my dad makes me "just in case" you know like, just in case i fucking poisoned the food. like. that is too much fucking work for me i'll just kill my fucking self. //throws head back// i'm so pissed dammit

10 October 2014, 03:11 AM
l
love
comment

do you ever have that feeling

that something is wrong? like...it's just that thing you feel in your stomach; that dread; that voice in the back of your head saying something is wrong? i feel it right now lately concerning cheese and i will not feel any better until i hear her voice i swear to god

07 October 2014, 10:31 AM
l
love
comment

what even

this math is making sense?? so far?? i'm super fucking stressed i'm going to end up going blind because of glaucoma and stress isn't going to help (blood pressure in my eye and shit) but this math is helping??

07 October 2014, 10:28 AM
l
love
comment
Journal_pane_10212521412573892

weasels are bogus

only because i have trouble drawing them. anyway, finally got a message from cheese and it turns out i'm just a huge fucking worry wart :u

06 October 2014, 06:38 AM
l
1 love: cwl.abc.123
comment

postivity

i wrote a thing to cheese saying that you needed to take what you felt and use it. i'm trying to be really positive right now and... and..it's really hard because i feel like i can't fucking win. what am i supposed to do with this?? how do i turn this around??

05 October 2014, 02:01 AM
l
1 love: TakamiyaAkina99
1 comment: TakamiyaAkina99
Journal_pane_10212521412462860

cheese

my girlfriend, nicknamed cheese, tried to kill herself two days ago and i'm really glad she let me know. she's said she regretted it but i know she's depressed right now and i'm just laying here in bed and it just hits me that my girlfriend, the person most precious to me in this world, tried to kill herself and i cannot stop crying because this relationship is a ldr and what's to say she hasn't jumped off a roof. i mean, she could be doing something productive. she could be watching a movie ...

04 October 2014, 11:47 PM
l
3 loves: TakamiyaAkina99,samcromer18,ariyull
comment