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Why are you doing this to me. You told me we would be forever...did you lie? We are pretty much breaking up every other day now and I don't like it. It is our 9th month today...You didn't say shit to me today or anything...I just want to cry...I don't know what happened to you but I fucking hate it...

20 May 2014, 01:22 PM
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Last night

I went to LAZERfest and it was fudging awesome. I had a wonderful time. I went moshing and all that. I got kicked in the head from a drunk guy crowd surfing...that was fun...and on top of that we went on lockdown because there was a big storm in Iowa. I didn't get home till 3:00 am this morning. I am so tired. I got a guitar pick from We came as Romans and that made my night. I had a wonderful time and I will never forget last night with my boyfriend and his brother. <3 I love them c:

12 May 2014, 03:07 PM
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Love broken

I am really in love with you but when you say you want a break...I hurt so bad and if it's over something stupid...I don't think it's right...I suppose I will hope for the best when we are together but I can't really do that because of my disorders...and for that I am sorry. Goodbye forever love...now it's going to have to start slow again...

09 May 2014, 01:29 PM
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I love you!

Katylnn I fucking love you! You are my best friend and I will never change you in for anything. You are my other half. I can't imagine my life without you. I love you and Thank you so much for being my best friend.

08 May 2014, 01:34 PM
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Roses

This morning my love surprised me with roses. We got into a big fight one day last week and I told him he has to show me that he is sorry. I guess this is how he wanted to show me sorry this way. I like it I just wish I could do the same a little. I didn't think he would do this I always thought something else. Oh well I love him and that's it.

08 May 2014, 01:24 PM
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Who I am

I may not be perfect but I am who I am. I don't want to be someone different for anyone. I will be myself and only myself. Sure I may think of suicide and self-harm but that is only me. I used to self-harm and all of that until I met my boyfriend and last week I wanted to commit suicide again for the first time...it has been 9 months I haven't thought about that.

08 May 2014, 01:21 PM
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Mayday parade

Hold onto me has a lot of meaning behind it. It is one of my favorite songs by them.

07 May 2014, 02:03 PM
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Grandma

I found out I have to put the tombstone on your grave Saturday...you never had a tombstone. You had a pot over your grave for 14 years. You died when I was two and I still remember the day. I finally get to see my aunt and uncle because of this...even though it is going to be sad...I love you grandma! R.I.P

07 May 2014, 01:40 PM
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Concerts

I love going to concerts. I have been going since I was 5 years old. I have been to a lot of rock concerts. Rock is my main music. It is also my drug. Rock concerts everyone treats you like family and I love that. Never feel like you have no family. We all have a family somewhere, you just have to find it.

06 May 2014, 05:12 PM
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Death...

I don't know if I should eat or if I should starve. I don't feel like anyone would notice that I am starving myself for them to be happy because no one cares about me. I always ask myself "is life worth it to just keep on hitting rock bottom and let people kick me when I am already down?" I don't know if I am worth life or if I am just worth as a pile of shit...I really don't know...

06 May 2014, 01:57 PM
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My love

We have been through a lot together. He has put up with my non-sense for 8 months and 15 days. We may have our moments but he is always there for me. I love him to the fullest. He is my one and only I will never trade him for anything. I love you Felipe! <3

05 May 2014, 05:09 PM
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My hero

Mitchell Adam Lucker is my hero. He was there for me with his music when no one else was. I will never forget the day when I found out my hero died...

05 May 2014, 01:58 PM
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Why me

So you pick me to pick on. You think you can have power over me and control me when you can't even take care of your son. You get jealous because my boyfriend is better than you. Why do you hate me so much? Why do you lead me into suicidal thoughts? Why me?

05 May 2014, 01:25 PM
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I'm so sorry!

02 May 2014, 04:49 PM
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Sorry...

I'm sorry I'm not good enough. I'm sorry I can't be who you want me to be. I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I mess everything up that I do. If I could I would be different for you. I want you to be happy but you can't be happy until I'm gone, now can you. I'll be out of your life if you want. I'm sorry but I have to let you go...

02 May 2014, 04:46 PM
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