Break-up

Some days are significantly worse than others. However, there is a secret pleasure in a terrible, devastating day: you see yourself clearer than ever, as if you are wiping the dirty layer off a window. Devastation opens the fogged eyes and gives life meaning by revealing its hidden shades. You can live a happy and cheerful life of no worries or concerns, but it would be like living in a small monotonous box of no meaning or significance—cut off from your own intrinsic depth. Pain and sufferi...

29 July 2014, 04:52 AM
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It's extremely hard to let go. I specialize in resisting any kind of change. But resisting change is a juvenile and unsophisticated act. Whether the change is positive or negative, I must make it because it is the only way to grow. I don't want to leave him, but I must. I know he may end up happier—there's a good chance he will—and I will be left alone in the dust, but I must do it. I won't know if I don't try. Sometimes, pain is the only way to grow. This happens to be one of those times.

25 July 2014, 02:35 AM
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1 love: xhannahxx0
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Abandoned

When you feel like you'd rather spend a Friday night alone than with your friends, that's when you know you feel betrayed. When you want to just be alone because you know nobody can hurt you, that's when you know something is wrong with your relationship. I'm a happy person, but not everybody out in the world is happy. I need to surround myself with positive uplifting people or else I will drown with all the negative people. It's hard to tell when somebody is dragging me down. I let my boyfri...

25 July 2014, 01:12 AM
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Individualism vs. Collectivism

A competitive nature is exceptionally crucial to success. Whether it is attaining the greatest resume for college and jobs, winning the huge sports game, or being the most popular at school, competitiveness helps to rise us to the top. However, there is a plot twist that NEEDS to be remembered. Competitiveness surrenders ourselves to our environments, allowing us to get wrapped in the actions and achievements of others, causing us to feed off their failures and selfishly abandon our usual mor...

23 July 2014, 05:05 AM
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1 love: xhannahxx0
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I've discovered the worst possible feeling. It is the feeling induced by a lack of purpose; a lack of passion. I feel as though I'm in a battle against time, yet I don't know what it means to "live each day to the fullest." That's where I am right now. I'm lost, I need something new to excel at or else I drown in negative thoughts of hopelessness and self-depreciation. Summer before college should be the most stress-free, careless time of my life, yet I'm finding that I am dependent on a stre...

22 July 2014, 05:38 AM
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2 loves: blaqkn8,xhannahxx0
1 comment: blaqkn8

Reflection

What makes you feel happy at the end of the day? Which memories of the day induce that warm feeling of productivity and self-worth? These questions bring my favorite quote, by Ralph Walso Emerson, to life: "To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded." As I lay in my bed, the only images I can formulate are smiles: smiles from my mom, my brother, my grandpa, my best friend, and even the worker at the local drug store who I complemented. It may s...

21 July 2014, 04:45 AM
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2 loves: blaqkn8,xhannahxx0
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Something

I feel as though I'm stuck in a cloud of ignorance. I feel claustrophobic, yet cling to this vacuum of easy security. Maybe it's the idea of my entire life changing as I go off to college, or maybe it's just the fact that I'm borderline psychotic, but I feel uncomfortable all the time. All my life has been set out for me. I've been given books and textbooks to study which I've done with my utmost efforts and excelled. I've been told the recipe for success in high school, from joining student ...

20 July 2014, 05:34 AM
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2 loves: arielaunnah,xhannahxx0
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